BlitzSivam: Ramblings of a Broken Thief

2010-06-27T14:49:00.001+08:00

test. test no one ever visits, so who cares

2009-09-24T23:28:00.001+08:00

cant be fucked to do my nanotech report and i had a revelation today.

life. is all about balance.

you cant be good at everything. and you cant be bad at everything.

think of it as a stat sheet. you put points in your abilities, feats, develop your persona, go through trials, succeed, fail, but learn. its just like a game. no two characters are alike. sure older people are like more experienced gamers. they teach how to effectively be what you can be [Learn to play your class perhaps.]. you can copy them as much as you like but ultimately, you go through different trials , aqquire different experiences, making you, you.

ok drifting

anyway, balance. life has a certain… ‘way’ about it. its like a stat that you are predetermined with, that you cant add points to. for the sake of this.. write up, lets call it ‘luck’. luck is a stat that everyone has. prolly from 1-10. you cannot increase your luck, nor decrease it. it affects all situations, considering that in all events, luck plays at least a minor role. sure, you train up for something, but you also wish that you get lucky, or the opponent was unlucky.

but that doesnt mean everyone has the same value for luck. some people may be blessed with a lot, and to balance that, there are people who a cursed with misfortune. you cant really determine it who has which amount, because we dont know when luck plays out, and how much influences a specific event.

balance plays a role in larger groups. if you put everyone in the world and work out their abilities, you would [theoretically] see a 50% competency in every ability. like dissolves like when people of common interests come together, pool their abilities and overcome a great feat. but to balance that, they leave the incompetent in a group, and they crash and burn.

what if… you knew you were that incompetent person?

i look around, everyone has already tapped into their potential. i know awesome people, who are great at doing what they do best. and what do i do? just bring them down. i am a counterweight, a person that when included in anything, just serves to make every task look averagely done. if i wasnt there, it would be perfect, but my great misfortune and low stats just make everything look half-baked.

what abilities to i have? nothing. i cannot say with great confidence that i am good in something, because i know somewhere, there is someone , doing the same thing as me, only way better. i. suck.

maybe i should just stay alone. this way everyone can advance faster, and i wont be able to pull them down to my level. why the fuck would anyone wanna hang around with a deadweight who only knows how to embarrass himself and is an idiot half the time [and the other half, isnt even there.]

its times liek these i wonder if there is really a higher power. so many issues need to be addressed. if i am a counterweight, whats the point? just to suck at everything, bring people down, then die? kinda stupid isnt it? but i would really like to know. if i am destined for nothing but msfortune, i would love to know in advance, that way i wont start anyhting, bcause i know i am destined for failure.

would you be able to continue on your life’s journey, if you knew the destination was nowhere?

2009-08-08T05:09:00.001+08:00

i write this now because i am slightly tipsy, and i think i need to get this down somewhere before i forget. prolly wont make sense tomorrow, but fuck it.

now i not trying to be self centred, but i want to talk about me.

I, Sivam Tharmarajah [yes, the gang now know my middle name, fuck.] Murthy, have problems.

first off, i have no self confidence

i have been talking Mary-Anne [my neigbour] and she old me, that i need more self confidence.

which is slightly true, i guess

My role model is Emiya Sirou from Fate. in order to be a superhero, one must save all parties. ‘From the very beginning, his reward was not what he received from the people he saved, but the pure action of saving someone.’ : this was the motto i live by. maybe its because of my lack of self worth. i am also aware that [with an xample for today] that if i do the same thing as someone at the same time. i would obviously be overshadowed. maybe thats why i hang out wiht such people. i want to learn how to be confident.

BUT it is not that easy. confidence can only be gained by practice. the people i know in Perth are fucking amazing in what they do. Especially the friends i make here. sometimes, i wish i could be like them. but from a realistic point of you, i know i can never reach that level.

. he’s right, he’s absolutely fucking right. no matter how much i try to break my bonds, all i ever do is be nice to people. and apparently im being more and more mean. and if im not nice, what do i have? absolutely nothing. part of a minority. who ever heard of an indian [hm..] listening to jpop [odds just went lower..><.]. maybe coz i realized too late that nice guys will never get the girl. remember this picture for life..

sad, because it’s true. part of me cant be bothered to try to find someone. part of me keeps going, because, the probability is always going towards your favour the more times you fail. hm..

my only ‘talent ‘ is doing math in my head, like a freak. and even so, some people do it faster than me and people are amazed.

is it because i also have an inferiority complex? friends around me are acknowledged as being awesome at stuff they do. i also have o self worth. because from what i do, as long as someone else is doing it, i dont get anything. which makes it pointless. i know its horrble of me to think tat i do stuff for attention and i am a very bad person. but yea.

Lizzy said that ‘i am a great lad’. Luke Smith said the same thing. such nice people..

but someone i feel that i am missing something. like an actualy identity.

art imitates life, but life imitates art as well. what if the path of Shirou is what lies in store for me. helping people as much as i can, regardless of myself, until i get betrayed and blamed, and i get accused for something i didnt do, and i die cold and alone. the thing about nice guys is that they will always be taken advantage of. especially the bad looking ones like me who only have theirkindness going for them

i know it may pessimistic or bad to say i look bad, but then again, look at me. dark, small, fat, secluded. sigh. i should do something about it. but no matter what im good at, i know at least 2 people who are better tha me at it, which puts me at useless level. and doing something of my own just results in me being mocked at sigh.

Ais said ‘i was a very good friend’ which is cool, the people who compliement me are just awesome.

i need to do something, butit’s too late, and this is all i have. i guess the only thing i can do is live with it, and stay in the shadows. The path of the Guardian is to only help whenever possible, even at the cost of his own life, for his life is worhtless compared to the number of people he saves.

i also seem to choose th wrong women. i really gotta start looking for girls similar to me. but i cant help it if they dont appeal to me. and the girls that appeal to me, dont find me appealing. hm.

i guess its got to do with how i project myself. so meh. i need to do something. but what? all i have are words. i only know how to talk, to type. and as a pattern, if they dont know what i look like, its all good. once i tell them, i get this whole ‘oh..ok.. somethingsomethigsomething friends etc.’ total orz. maybe sould just resign and just slink into my room.

nothig else for now.. just feeling too depressed. zzz. but not saying anyhting bad about teh people in perth. the friends i make here are an awesome bunch. i just feel unworthy.

laters dude. [Ikari Shinji, Emiya Shirou: two sides of the same coin]

[wonder how much o my life would change if i was different physically. i wish i had a shrink]

2009-04-28T11:44:00.001+08:00

Birthday Wishlist : because i got 30mins until i go for physics.

1) Aya Hirano Fanbook or lifesize poster. [a Dakimkura is fine too]

2) Fujibayshi Ryou Route in CLANNAD

3) Fujibayashi Ryou Figurine.

4) Sakura Matou Fig [Sch U]

5) Goodsmile Kagamine Rin and Len Figures to accompany my Miku.

6) Horikita Maki Poster.

7) 500gm of Famous Amos Cookies [Choc Chip and Pecan]

8) Decent Fig of Yuki Nagato [Reading her book, wearing glasses. none of that bunny girl, guitar, non-glasses shit]

9) time to fully coplete CLANNAD, Tsukihime, Magical Battle Arena and FF9

10) Dissidia in English

also, What i would give to play with Horikita Maki’s Hair.

there i said it, dont judge me.

to be fair : http://www.sankakucomplex.com/2008/08/05/maki-horikita-star-idol-gallery/

[Is it possible to fall in love with a Hairstyle? {Dear Horikita Maki :HHHHHHNNNNNNGGGGGGHHHHH}]

2009-04-19T22:23:00.001+08:00

ever since i got the final fantasy IX soundtrack, ive been listening to the tunes and have come up with my favourites. as you know, i recently picked up the title once again, to see if i can unlock any more stuff, and hopefully fulfill the task of completing the game using one character [prolly Zidane, since he’s my favourite]

First is Loss of Me. commonly known as Beatrix’s Theme. personally i find her hot, but i think its because of the fact she’s a sword wielder, and she has eyepatch. and we all know that accesories= moe..

Protecting my devotion : its a variation of Loss of Me, and it played during the siege of Alexandria. Steiner and Beatrix team up to fight the Mistodons invading the city, and this was the tune that was being played thougout the whole part of the game.

Black Mage Village : it had a nice beat, and revealed more about Vivi’s past.

this tune is slowly growing on me.. Titles You’re not Alone!, this tune is played when Zidane finds out the truth of his existence and he goes emo. His going emo phase was epic. [wats a bunch of bastards! but then again, im the best loser of them all]

Now i like Zidane. he was the best character ever. why?

1) Main character of FF9. and i like FF9

2) He was a thief. never has a thief been a main character.

3)Wielder of Ultima Weapon , Strongest weapon ingame.

4) His best skill, Thievery was determined by his speed value, and the numbers of successful steals ingame [basically i used him to steal items, so i never bought potions, only weapons]

5) yellow hair, love the freaking colour

6) He had a skill called ‘Sacrifice’ in which, he would lose all MP and HP, killing himself, but would restore that much to all other party members.

7) His Tagline was ‘Virtue : You don’t need a reason to help people’

sadly he gets the girl endgame. but technically i lost years ago. so meh.

Vamo’alla Flamenco : played during chocobo hot and cold. god dammit ive heard this song the most number of times ingame, and thats because im trying to get points to trade for a card. im acutally gonna complete my card collection! JOY. also during the blank and zidane fight, which i NEVER seems to get 100 people impressed.

The song played during the OP sequence, and the first tune i heard when i played this games for the very first time [well..duh]. Titled The Place I’ll Return to Someday.

and we cant forget the 2 importants songs ingame.

the song that indicates the start of a normal battle!

and…

VIctory Fanfare!

Garnets Song of Memories. …bawwww..

thats it really.. thats alot of songs.. but hey, i love the game. so it cant be helped.

and i just realized that Kuja is FABULOUS. especially his outfit. o god.

well thats it for now. im actually sleepy. and i need to study for chem. i guess i will leave my depressing post for next time.

i shud pick up bloggin again

2009-04-19T16:27:00.001+08:00

ok i know what everyone is thinking. where the hell have i been. well. i have been busy. and not just a little busy. i mean ‘oh my god i hand up this thing and they reward me with another thing. and while wondering what this thing is about, someone else hands me a third thing’ busy. so i guess im sorry i have not blogged. i guess i will start from the most recent topic and try to see how far my memory serves me.

Restarted playing final fantasy 9 again. i guess im trying to accomplish my goal of finishing as many FF titles before i graduate. a thing i realized about myself. i kinda prefer the titles that have a more medieval, past them, as compared to the technology futuristic theme. crystals are awesome. materia? not as much. hence the order intend to play is.

Final Fantasy 9 [fuck yea Zidane you are my role model]

Final Fantasy 3 [Onion Knights!]

Final Fantasy 1 [Fighter , Thief, WM , BM party]

Final Fantasy 2

Final Fantasy 4

and Maybe 5 or 6.

7 8 10, 10-2 and 12 can wait. id prolly do 10 first since i love Blitzball [i can play that for hours on end…] and leave 10-2 for last since i dont intend to play Princess dress me up.

i just realize my lst post was a month before i came over to aus. so i guess i will fill you in

Aus is FAN-FREAKING-TASTIC.

my god its like the army, in the sense i am away from home. but instead of training, im studying, and i dont get to stay at home. i get to skype whenever, do whatever. the freedom is alright. but then again im wasting too much money since im going out more. i cant stay in my room for long periods of time, hence my online gaming life is practically erased. it also helps that this place has the worst internet in the world.

the people are nice. i just came bck from a road trip during the easter break. it was fun [3dys 2 nights] almost got smashed. prolly drunk, but still aware, so yay. problem was the snorkelling.

im not a water person. i know it, everyone knows it. i dont like swimming, the sea, the ocean [the beach is ok. for shell gathering and wading] but i dont like gettin wet. but since the whole gang was for snorkelling i thought, i migt give it a shot.

i dont regret it, it was fun. considering when you look underwater, its clear, and you see schools of fish. its just that my body was on auto-fear, and i prolly wasnt getting the full experience. fear consumed me, with my heart rate almost doubling, and taking deep breaths all the time, thus making my dive up for air very often. if only i didnt have this fear of water, i my hve gotten a better experience out of it. but hey, i dont regret it. it was le awesome.

after playing Dissidia for the past 4 months, i have come to the conclusion that Sephiroth is indeed, awesome. his background, his personality and his theme song [One-winged Angel] are beutiul. i maxed out Zidane, Onion Knight, The Emperor and Sephiroth for kicks. and got tired of trying to max kefka. taking a break until the english version comes out.

following text is about ff9, if you dont know nuts about it. sorry. but you should. go play it. fuck cloud, squall, sephiroth and all your bishounen.

As For FF9, i think ive gone beyond help. i grinded with Zidane, Freya, Vivi and Quina near chocobos forest till they learnt all their abilities. cept zidane, since he doesnt have ap up. on disc 2, i grinded garnet and steiner to a point where garnet has now 100 MP. thus abling her to cast shiva. without her gettin kidnapped. intending to use before she gets kidnapped, and stripped of all summons until the … opal gem i recall? steiners blood sword is fuckwin.

also, captured 25 frogs. quina does 500 frog drop now. in the beginning of disc 2! u can imagine the pain of waiting. and almost everyone has ap up and level up. and auto reflect… i went to buy out the auction. lol.

schol is meh. summary.

Maths : like a maths only with essays ivolved

Physics: fun at first, now its just balls [we have 3 dimensions. x y and z. and a fourth dimension, time, which is perpendicular to all 3 dimensions. OMG WAT]

Chem i fun [i dont know what on earth is goin on most of the time. but after i do the experiment, i just write down the facts and observations, and they all piece together]

Bio is the worst. [so much to read so much to read so much to read.]

other than that.nothing else is happening. so i shall stop here. i will try to blog again. but yea..

kthxbye

[been i aus for 2 months and i have rank 37litres of ribena and ate around 2kg of chips. SHIT WS SO CASH]

woot

2009-01-05T01:37:00.001+08:00

FIRST POST OF THE YEAR FUCK YES

First Off , Merry Xmas, Happy New Year. 2009: are you ready?

random stuff here and there but thats just how i do stuff.

ok what has happened since the 24th? lets see...

nothing much really. i spent xmas at home.. wishing random people. i think i was watching Casshern SINS when it was midnight but i cant recall exactly.

but i know christmas day was eventful. i went out with the players for... pool, and dinner at pastamania. player managed to join us at night for dinner , and while waiting for him, the rest of us were playing pool. but in the afternoon, someone suggested that we play munchkin overnight. at first i was against it coz i had work the next day. but in the end, we ended up playing at white sands mac from 10pm to 7am.

and then i wnet to work immediately after that. which wasnt so bad, coz there wasnt much to do since the peak period was over and i was thankful. i was awake for more that 33hours. doesnt beat the best of 37 tho [sec 2-4. cant remember.]

3 games were played. 2 epic, 1 normal. 1st victor : me, 2nd: dan, 3rd: jon. jerm gets consolation prize. strangely. me and jon won both our games by reach level 21, and annihilating the extra effort dungeon card from the game, thus reducing the req to 20, auto winning. and the most stupid thing was that he stole the annihilation card from me during the previous round in the last game! [if you dont understand anything ive just said... sorry]

i got a hip flask for xmas from my parents.

mom: here u go

me: hm? i dont need anyhting

mom: just take it

me: ok ty

*open*

me: its a hip flask

mom: yea

me: .... you want me to drink?

mom: its not only for alcohol

me: so what am i going to do with it?

mom: fill it up with ribena? [wat]

me: 150ml capacity

mom: yea. fill it up with concentrate, then use your other bottle and fill that up with water. so you potentially can make 1 litre of ribena with 150ml of the conc. [wow]

me: uh... ok i'll take note of that. lets try it now

mom: oh you cant, we dont have anymore ribena at hom

me: .... ok then.

but its still a nice flask tho

o yea, in case you were thinking 'you work?' well.. not anymore.. last day was the 31st. been working in end of sept at cpf. quite fun. first 3 weeks were hard coz i had no idea what the hell i was doing, but after, it was pretty smooth. not to mention there was some cute [if not short] girls around.

saturday, i went to buy my psp. i was thinking about gettin one in a long time. with the lack of good games on the ds, and the fact that most of my friends have psp's i decided to get one. some notes on sat.

met jerm [player 1] at pasir ris. had lunch there. dan and jon [2 and 0] were swimming and going to have lunch in tamp so we took our time.

we then met them on the train goin to bugis. bought it.

had dinner there. cheap dinner is cheap. and delicious. budget is good.

then we went to 2's house to play and try it out. played bomberman, and monster hunter. what was supposed to be a transfer of games and go home by ten thirty ended up being an overnight psp party. we played until 4 am. and then slept till 9. wtf. then we went to have breakfast at 11 near tp and i only reached home at 12. it was fucking awesome. but we stayed up 2 nights in 4 days. which is kinda disturbing. luckily i had the whole of sunday to recover.

monday to wednesday was pretty much normal.. work.. home.. repeat. wed was my last day, and since it was new years eve, it was a half day. ended at one fuck yea! had lunch at thai express. the black pepper soft shell crab is full of win. then i accompanied her to wheelock then went home to get ready for ranjan's birthday.

o yea, 31st of dec = ranjan [cousin] and john's [poly mate] birthday. one turns 21 and the other 22. wow.

went to ranjans function with the family, had to leave early to go to dan's house for overnight pps party[yes, 3rd all nighter in 2 weeks. wtf]. and i met jesslyn from my sec sch [3 years my junior] huh. small world. then i went to dan's house to play monster hunter. but we ended around 3am.. zz

thursday and friday ere kinda boring. i spent the whole of thursday and friday finishing up Heavens Feel of the Fate Story. This marks the end of Fate: Stay Night. Sakura's route is depressing. died too many times, but unlocked alot of stuff. more details on that to follow. i may post pics of the story if i remember some parts... but basically it was depressing. and after completing the story, they put a new main menu that shows Sakura trees, and the music just reminds you of the path and the bittersweet True End.

pic related. Sakura True Ending.

anyway.. saturday afternoon went to jeremy's place for the last game in a long time, considering everyone is goin to study by feb and no one has free days. from 4pm to 7am, monster hunter 2. old game yea, but still fun. pizza was invovled and lots of wasabi peanuts. i swear those things keep you awake very well. the trick is to pop one, crunch it once, pop another, crunch once, repeat until mouth full. soon, the heat will just go to your nose and brain and you wont be able to sleep.

and now we come to sunday. reached home at 8, slept till 12. got a call at 2 to go out by 3.30. met the army guys for dinner and random stuff. we had dinner at paragon. and i only realized the place since i was there on wednesday to eat at thai express. lol

ok im too sleepy and this is pretty brief for a blog post. i suppose i could blog about fate stay night later.. but we'll see how it goes.

Up Next: Planetarian, True Rememberance, and hopefully CLANNAD. all i know is, i got alot of stuff to do this month.

until next time.

and once again, Happy Holidays

[Now Listening To: The Ultimate HOTBLOOD Soundtrack]

2008-12-28T14:18:00.001+08:00

I am the Bone of my Sword

Steel is my Body, and Fire is my Blood

I have created over a thousand Blades

Unknown to Death, Nor Known to Life

Have withstood pain to create many Weapons

Yet, those hands will never Hold Anything

So as I pray, Unlimited Blade Works.

[Here I come King of Heroes. Do you have enough weapons in stock?]

2008-12-24T14:45:00.001+08:00

a = b
a^2 = a*b
a^2-b^2 = a*b-b^2
(a+b)(a-b) = b(a-b)
(a+b) = b
a+a = a
2a = a
2 = 1

lol

tip: divide by zero

2008-12-24T08:13:00.002+08:00

they all laughed at me when i called the flyer a death trap.

now whos laughing? me.

lulz.

on a serious note, lucky it didnt happen in the afternoon. with the airc onditioning cut, it could have been a total greenhouse effect. would potentially cause 784 people [28 capsules with max capacity of 28 so yea.] to bake. or photosynthesize..

i was imagining if i was stuck in the thing for 6 hours so this is what i came up with
1) play wifi.
2) if ds runs out of power, listen to music.
3) if ipod runs out of power, just laugh it out. or borrow friend's psp

thanksfully after the first time i went with my parents, i swore to never go again. haha the suckers.

to all those couples, and families, and lonely people, wishing to go on the flyer for christmas to celebrate love or lack of it[for lonely people.im sure your invisible friend will be there for you tho.] tough luck. closed until investigations are done. and the odds of it being done my xmas, is loooooooooooow.

tried manhattan fish market on monday. opened a brach in whitesands. cash payment =O. thats besides the point. think fish and co. only.... not? alaskan pollock fish and chips = =D. dory was better tho.

btw, alaskan pollock = pollock from alaska. just wanted to say it.

last week was eventful as well. went to eat with jon, esther, dan. then we went to watch the day to earth stood still. notes

boy playing a lvl 40+ paladin inw orld of warcraft. fighting nagas in STV. in the movie, he told his mom that she got him killed. which is a total lie coz paladins CANNOT die. bubble, lay on hands, bubble hearth ??? PROFIT.

keanu reeves has one expression. but that ability alone made him shine, considering he was supposed to be an alien.

the part where he says he is going to save the planet, i assumed everyone knew, all humans are going to die. so in the middle of the movie when the heroine was saying 'but you said you were going to help us' and he goes 'i said i was going to save your planet' i was the only one laughing. ten seconds later, when the heroine shits bricks and says '...from us. you are saving the planet from us.' everyone was shocked.

i mean COME ON. when aliens come to our planet, it generally means, we humans are fucked. everyone knows we fucked our planet. hell, even humans know we fucked our planet. its in our genetic code. right next to G. no one wants to save humans. how can anyone not see a pattern? war of the worlds, mars attacks etc. aside from freaking disney movies [and they dont count. im glad high school musical ends in three. unless they all dont make it to college, in which 4, is next.. or they all go to the same college. then it becomes porn.{ashley tisdale nekkid. rainbows.}], whenever aliens come down to earth, we will die.. im not saying all humans.. most humans survive.. but a considerable number of people will perish.. women and children especially. then us normal people.
so please dont be surprised and say ' oh my god he said saave planet but he wants to kill us WHOWOULDHAVEKNOWN.' you should know. everyone should know. stop being retarded and hope aliens will come down and give us free technology[I CAN HAS LAZURS?] and solutions to all our problems. the fact they land on earth, without knowing, proves to them that they are superior. and that just increases the urge for them to purge us, so that they can use our resources for their stuff. and dont even think about defences. they can pass through our satellite detection system without knowing. im sure they can kill us without us even noticing them. sigh.

although it was wierd that i was the only laughing. meh.

3rd point. it reeked of bibly stuff. the ark, the plague. the plague was awesome. they were eating a diamond bit drill. it was a small little bug eating diamond, after it reaches it's limit, it splits into 2, then it repeats. so basically what was running through my head was 'NOMNOMNOM SPLIT'.

Keanu was the best jesus ever. he endured the wave of the bugs. and touched sacraficed his life to save man[which he shouldnt have] and said unto the shiny orb 'forgive them, for they are a race that do not know what they are doing'. ok maybe he didnt say that...but he should have.

also, the shiny orb the aliens used to travel to earth? it was Ozma. from FF9. you heard it here first.

also dont you find it funny that the moment an alien came out of the orb, someone shot it. kinda says alot doesnt it.... and they never said what planet it came from.. so meh.

tuesday i had dinner with jason and jerry at Minori in Katong. [PITCHER BIBITERU HEY HEY HEY!]. eating with them is an awesome experience. so for two days straight i had jap food. but tuesday was alot of sashimi. it was frigging awesome. talked about wow, and bf1942. much lulz were had.

i finally got a plan for new years. basically. on the eve till midnight, i will play planeterian, the following days will be spent completing clannad and the after story. for the time being, i will spend my time completing heaven's feel, thus fully completing Fate/ Stay Night.. if i have time after all that, i'llplay tsukihime but thats last on my list. the first 3 alone would probably set me into such a state i will be a shell of my former self [and nothing of value was lost?..]. i could always be an hero and play eureka 7 while playing it. suzuka and binbo shimai monogatari did the same thing to me, but i was weak. eureka 7 is potent enough. then play dear you from the higurashi album. sudden urge to an hero. but im strong!

the rest of the week was pretty uneventful. lvl 10 sub sub appretntice accordion thief. moxious.
waiting on jerm to get his com then me dan and jerm will be playing warhammer. fuck yea witch hunter.

2 weeks ago on friday, i went out to eat dinner, then i went to eugene's house tot ry out the board game version of munchkin, entitle munchkin quest.. notes

1) it is possible to level up purely on gold. just search room, explore empty room, search. each uses one movement, so min 3 is used in turn, which is perfect.
2) thieves are nerfed. steal is no longer an available ability. hence, u can take any items.
3) current record is farming gold to reach lvl 9. but severly underpowered as i didnt kill any monsters , thus not gettin any weapons.
4) loaded die, reloaded die. are fucking awesome.

we played 2 games. started at 12-1am.
first game was co-op. [no backstabbing, cooperate to reach level 10 and kill boss. basically a game to learn about the rules.] took two hours. money was ok, but since it had 2 people killing a monster at a time, we had items and levels. that took 2 hours.

second game was free-for-all. daniel drew first blood with a curse, and that was the start. in order to not get cursed in battle i figured id try my luck to get through just gettin money and hoping my rolls were high enough to ransack rooms for treasure. and them someone drew a Lame Goblin [-1 to all dice rolls] and i was screwed. but a record of 10k over the whole match. used 8k to get to lvl 9, used 2k to buy 3 items at 1.5k.. then i sold the useless items, got another 1k, and use a card to trade 1.5k for 3 more cards! so basically i leveled, being a farmer. reminds me of my days inw arcraft. being the noob i am. i just harvest gold and lumber and made many moon wells. i was the team healpad... but i have no defences what so ever so i will get raped all the time. but the good thing was, no matter wat game, i was top resources! not anyhting to be proud of tho.

but the game took 8hours. i ended up reachin home at 945am. didnt sleep. but it was totally worth it. the thing about munchkin is that the rules are very very fuzzy. hence the rulebook 'any disputes will be argued loudly until decided. if anything, the owner of the game has the last say' which was an advantage to me, since i owned the card game. the board game was eugene so.... meh.of course with the card game, i usually settle dispute with dice rolls. the higher roller is always the winner.

thats it really for the past few weeks.

[flannery(f): you cant steal it
eugene(e): but the card says any big item
f: but its on my hireling
e: but it said any big item, it never said not neccessarily on ahireling
f: but its wrong to steal a hireling.
e: it may be wrong, but it can still be done

me: ah dammit, this is taking too long. settle this fairly. *toss them the dice. go roll, highest roller is correct, the fates favour him, and that is the path we will take!
f: fff no
e: wat?
me: owner of game, last say. now roll, i wanna steal more stuff.
jason: u stole my coat of arms, i will remember all.
me: but i wanted to use my 3handed sword
jason: excuses
daniel: i wan that sword!
jeremy: shut up daniel no sword for you
e: okok roll.
eugene rolls a 5.
f: ....
me: if you believe you are correct, and if you are really correct, you will roll a 6.
f: sigh
flannery rolls a 3
me: tough luck. on hireling gone. lol.

oh and i got curse after that since jason was sore about the coat of arms.

2008-12-21T02:49:00.001+08:00

the next time someone asks you for more information even after you have helped them through everything, you should encourage them to look at the Frequently Asked Questions section, and find out more.

In other words

Go FAQ yourselves.

heh.

3am.

also, Unlimited Blade Works done.

Emiya track is awesome. nothing beats the depressing sounds of Ever-present feeling though

2008-12-10T13:30:00.003+08:00

No matter what , you can never change your fate. A thief will always be a thief. a thief can never hope to be a knight. it is just not in him. and besides, even he were to do stuff that knights only do, people will still consider him a thief.

although this is partly my fault as well. what was i thinking? to actually hope that it could come true. of course i do love to squash my own dreams, but if it seems too good to be true, it probably is. it seemed so perfect and then i had to ask a critical question, and all the pieces came together. it made sense, im glad i made it make sense, but then i feel angry about it. thats the problem with me. i actually HOPE. i really should not. but meh, what can i say? im a weak nublet.

since im on a roll , ive decided to fully play planetarian on new years eve to usher in the new year in ronery. also, i will complete CLANNAD. after story included. by the end of the year. spending the last few days of the year, in baww.

currently playing Unlimited Blade Works. finished Stay Night, it was meh. [haha shirou you suck. the love of your life confessing to you, and then slowly fading out of existence. still, it could be worse. she may tell you she had a crush on you years ago but was too afraid to tell you in the past. and she decides to tell you now coz she got over you and wanted to get it off your chest! no im not bitter, why do you ask?]

yea slow sivam is slow. he is only halfway through unlimted blade works, and hasnt even touched rin. archer is awesome. not as in combat fighting awesome, but as in ' i hate you shirou drown in your ideals and die' awesome. rin is of course : Tsun-tsun-dere-tsun-dere-tsun-tsun. [dammit such a catchy tune]. unlocked most of the bad ends up to now.. just a week more to go, 5 bad/dead ends, Normal and True End. and then...Onwards to Heaven's Feel. and Sakura Matou! fuck yea she is the most awesomest chara. in b4 worms.

i should just succumb to my fate. which i am doin now. playing Kingdom of Loathing and Warhammer Online. both good games. WAR for the pvp and unlocking tomes. KOL for the Lulz. also tried melty blood. Ciel is awesome. but i cant seem to fully execute her moves. and i learnt why i suck in fighting games. i dont know how to block. and blocking is a very important move

[sorry if this post seems rushed or doesnt make any sense at all. blogger swallowed a whole post just now and i was pissed. ]

yo. must complete before i sleep

2008-11-24T19:53:00.001+08:00

ok this is what i have been doing since i ORD-ed.

and this

currently only 37. the last 3 levels and its honor grinding! its better than saving 20k for a mount tho lol.

ok anyway. on the 22-23rd i went to the AFA 08~ lets have a look!

sorry wrong pic, heres the right one. they are so similar.. must be have some epic trolling

Random Highlights

on the last day i saw this awesome girl. pleated skirt, red and black. top was black and white , sleeveless, and she had the best hair ever. [it was short, neat and nothing too fancy.] no glasses but meh

but she was loev. shud have approached her but i am a geek! fuck that.

i want a yuki nagato figurine. with her sitting down reading her book with her megane. DO NOT WANT bunny girl or swimsuit _|_.

and thats my life for you

2 more weeks to the knight of the blazing sun. and i will name it.. you'll see

2008-10-25T08:56:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Joyner. 20 already. time flies.

play it if you want to.

the song is nice, the novel is nice, the anime is so so for now. [although sunohara arc ending picture is awesome. same as the novel. way to go KyoAni]

In other news, i am still alive.

find me on Darklands; Order. lv 26, Witch Hunter, Sivam.

2008-08-23T10:05:00.001+08:00

ok since my last post till now, all i have done is play final fantasy 4 and watch gintama. [turned to grinding, on both areas]. lets review

final fantasy 4: quite fun. although the numbers of characters deaths is stunning. a quick look at the characters

Cecil [Main]: Starts off as a Dark Knight, with a damn awesome looking armour, and turns into a paladin 1/4 in the game. as much as i like the fact he gets white magic, he looks like a fag now. currently a damn meat tank [counter+draw attacks.]. also, he is the son of a guy from the moon, and his brother was the evil guy. neat huh?

Rosa: the white mage of the party, and the main's love interest. surprisingly , she loves him in return. oh my god, requited love. then i realize this is a game and not real life. so a girl and guy can fall in love with each other, instead of it being one sided [no, im not thinking about something else, why?]

Rydia: a loli summoner that starts out with a chocobo [o god.] and a summon that is used in minigames. she leaves the team for a while, and comes back, aged 10years plus [not bad]. and with more summons, and black magic. uses a whip [kinky] that has the chance to paralyse [oo kinky] opponents.

Kain: supposedly best friend of cecil, they razed rydia's town together, then he disappears. comes back as the evil guy's underling. returns to cecil halfway coz the 'mind control spell' was broken. betrays them once again, coz he was mind controlled. and then returns to them in the end, when the spell was finally countered. he wants to get into rosa's pants but we all know Rosa schlicks to kain, and that pisses him.

Tellah: some old sage we meet in the first dungeon, dies in the 2nd part of the game when tryin to summon meteor.

***

apparently, after playing fate stay night [still on saber route. by the time i actually get around to finishing stay night and unlimited blades works, heavens feels would be released. in other words. motherfucking Sakura Matou fuck yea.

pic related: fuck yea Sakura Matou.

anyway, the theory of magic states that no matter you must always know your limits. magicians are able to cast spells above their limits, but in doing so they bring about their death [think of it as you driving. you constantly push the accelarator, and go really damn fast, but all that awaits you is a crash and burn]

this explains why, at 90mp, tellah was able to cast meteor, which was 99mp. and the game only gives him a max of 98 mp if you level him up. means that this fag will never be able to cast meteor within his normal limits. makes you wonder why he even learnt the goddamn spell [o yea, plot developement].

Dead.

Edward: Prince of some land, ran away with Tellah's Daughter. he is the bard of the party, and tellah once referred to him as 'YOU SPOONY BARD'. i have no idea what it meant, but i guess any father would be pissed if some spoony guy took his daughter away. although he didnt know edward was the prince and when his daughter told him on her deathbed[yea she dies too. she dies first, say its golbez fault, tellah rages, and leaves party to learn meteor, learns it, follows party to cast meteor on golbez] edward is a pussy, only knowing how to sing and play with his harp, although he regen spell is awesome. [Anthem of life = no healing lulz] falls off a boat and we never see him until a certain part ingame where we help dissolve a barrier with music[yea music. what the fuck]

Yang: the monk who dies by valiantly standing infront of 3 cannons, killing himself. turns out the jerk didnt die and was happily living in the slyph cave with 3 slyphs tending to his every need. and he's married too.

Palom and Porom: the lolis of the show. after you lose yand, rydia and edward on a ship, you end up on strange continent. upon reaching the nearest town you realize this was a town you destroyed[Oops] and you come to seek forgiveness for your past sins. the head of the town sends two loli mages [Palom is black mage, Porom: white] to help you on your journey of redemption [which was actually thought impossible, and the head just asked them to spy on you] to become a paladin from a dark knight [there is nothing wrong with being a dark knight. the only dark thing about it is the god damn armour] mages are pretty much uselee, even their twin cast was stupid due to the long casting time. still they were filled with lulz. they sacrifce themselves valiantly by turning themselves to stone to stop the walls of a room from closing in and crushing the other team. such gar lolis deserve manly tears. and the last part of the game, you see them alive[ head found them and cured them]

Fusoya: man from the moon. thats all i know. hes a moonman. FF really love their whole Gaia vs Terra thing there is always something about another planet or moon plot involved. you can breathe on the moon, since im having random encounters there.

Edge: last member of the final team. he's a fricking ninja. thats all you need to know.

******

Had my wisdom teeth extracted on the 22nd. hurts like hell and i can do solid food for awhile. sucks aint it? ah well. the surgery was ok. i kept hearing drilling noises. must be because of the drill. now my jaw is swollen so i cant go to the idp thing to check stuff. aww.

Does anyone wanna play munchkin. when i get my box from player 2, im thinking of playing again. leave a msg or sms and i'll see if i can organize a day and time. its been a long time since i played as well. lol

thats it really. nothing much has happened. cant be bothered to do anything so i guess thats why people think ive disappeared. cant be helped.

cant end properly, the painkillers are kicking in, so im gonna read some dmc, then go sleep for awhile. until then

END.

[

why did i lol?]

2008-08-14T19:59:00.001+08:00

first off, happy birthday to my bro.

been slacking at home all this while. trying to marathon gintama, but i keep gettin distracted.

Gintama is awesome. humor is random, gintoki's philosophies and comparisons are warped. the bit so far [only at 35] would be the ichigo gyunyuu speech. random.

since it was my brother's birthday, my mom decided to go try out the Singapore Flyer, the ~~revolving death trap~~ ferris wheel. 25 dollars a pop. [give or take.. all i know is, 4 people, 103dollars] and you get to spend half an hour in a little box that makes a high as hell trip. stomach was queasy coz i dont like heights, lucky i was distracted by my music. [Shounen Heart - Home Made Kazoku ; Eureka 7 OP02]

i dont see what the big deal is. the thing is so high, and if it breaks down, the only mode of escape is a ladder that is outside the cabin. you think anyone has the balls to climb the damn ladder if the ferris wheel stops? i know i dont. miss one footing, and u can drop to your death. thats..comforting. ironically the ladder from probably put there to cmfort people, and here i am panicking.

expensive as hell. probably going once is enough, if its your thing. personally i didnt want to go coz my height fear, but hey when the family requests you to go, nothing much you can do about it.

nothing else to talk about. i was supposed to write abt life and stuff, but i dont feel like it. another time.

also,

Y SO SRS GUYZ? [i know, old joke, thought id chip in b4 it dies out; Heath Ledger RIP]

here is an example of Gintama's randomness. the Strawberry Milk Speech

2 weeks of crap zomg

2008-08-10T21:09:00.001+08:00

Please, Please, PLEASE tell me you like text.

this may be long.

Wow i was supposed to blog two weeks ago, but alot of things came up. for example

Cowboy Bebop the Movie : Shit is awesome. Spike is awesome. Faye is awesome. ... so its awesome

Combat Arms: New MMO im playing to waste time for now. like cs, only i seem to suck a little less. i lag sometimes but i dont know why either...

Lazing around. so i'll be blogging, but who knows when the post will actually go up.

if you are wonderign about my spelling, dont. i cant be bothered. this is what i have been reduced to. a useless fatty. who cant spell or do math. why why is morale so low?

ok lets start on the 27th? i think that was a monday. had to go camp early to get ready for our ORD parade rehearsal. we had to be there by 7 coz the thing was at 7.30. everyone was ready by 7.15 but there was no notification. so just slacked in bunk.

then someone shouts that the rehearsal was pushed back to 10. we swore, and went to canteen. talked abit. we got our ord function ticket, as well as 2 tickets to the parade. i didnt want to give to my parents [2only? and 5pm at maju on a thursday. haha kill yourself pls.]

but before the rehearsal started, landy called us from the 1st floor.

Landy [L]

L: MPSP3 heads out

Me: ...hi?

L: Sivam come down.

Me: ...bye.

L: oi serious la.

Me: what? why?

everyone else coming out

L: need to do ord video

Me: why me?

if kenneth was there [he wasnt, some uni thing], he would have gone 'WHY ME? WHY MEEEEE?'

L: coz need one indian, one chinese and one malay... and you know...

Me: fuck la, i only idian in platoon. is that why they had to send me to 6sir? for the freaking racial harmony

my platoon: ...yea

Me: fine. Noh, Yao, u guys comin

Noh: eh wat? i dun want

Me: too bad

L: smart 4 [rehearsals in vest+slack so that was damn evil]

Me: dammit la dun wanna change

Yao: aiyah just bring everything down, later just change.

me: ok fine, dont forget to rbign your stuff

Yao: im not going

Me: of course you are

Yao: shit la, dun wan.

Me: too bad, youre the best talker so you gotta come

Yao: no the best talker is you

Me: STFU and come

And so we headed to our platoon to do the video. the first video we did was 'too candid'. i couldnt help it really, i only function decently when i assume everything is a huge joke. when they said we had to take it seriously i kinda froze up. its funny how i seem to go all motormouth whenever i assume i can say wahtever i want, but i freeze up and keep quiet when they say it has be serious. Serious Sivam just looks mean, and feels evil. after the video, we spent an hour talking to our pc about random stuff. Skip morning practice successful!. the hilights of that talk with our pc was that he told me that i have a vry disturbing mentality. regarding my future. or lack of it. in summary, i scary, not normal bla bla as long as im not married, amirite? [yea im right]

rehearsals in the afternoon was ok. i learnt something in the army. the only reason that everything last so long is because in any function/mission, they will give one this one near impossible to master quickly step, and make you rehearse that all the way. same thing here. standard stuff, and then one near impossible step that too much time. dammit, if only they'd tell themselves 'hey, lets take that out.' but nooo. 'put it in! i got time, and i want to see them squirm' seems to be the thought going through them at those moments.

aft that i went home. had to top up my freaking card coz i ran out of money. i remember the good old days where the bus and train fare together would cost less than the train fare now.... wtf i feel old saying that. fuck it. [im swearing alot? i wonder why]

on TUESDAY was the second day of rehearsal. we couldnt stay in camp coz by right we were on off and we didnt really need to come back. there was also another reason i dont think i can write it without gettin tagged by the government [oh you dont think it will happen, but when it does, you will definitely be shitting bricks.]

aft the morning rehearsals [which were hell , by the way thanks for asking]. we went to eat at the canteen. vik from sp4 joined us so it was a huge gang going. i sat down with pq, yao and vik and we were discussing stuff such as PUA-ing . i swear those 2[vik and yao, pq is already chained... i mean attached] talk abt stuff like that like how i talk about games. bunch of nerds, get a life [lol irony on my blog.].

there was something that was epic tho

Yao: you know , you should go out more, meet chicks, follow us

Me: yea, no. expensive, lazy and unlike you guys, i cant do the whole two steps forward one step back thing. chivalry is dead in the world but for some reason i follow it

Yao: and look where has that gotten you,

Sivam: shut up

Vik: look yao, ignore him, he's indian.

Sivam: dude, i dont know if you have noticed, but... you are too

Vik: no im not

Sivam: right. keep living in that illusionary world of yours.

PQ: hey you know what i just realized, this is the first time i seen you eat

Sivam: wtf so?

PQ: i know all those times you wish for me to go canteen with you to see you eat, and finally b4 we ord, i come once! arent you happy

Sivam: you're not even eating you bloody veggie [yea my buddy pq is vegetarian. you know why? ask him, the answer will shock you. {seriously, the love of a woman, or a whopper? take the damn whopper!}]. and the only reason you came now if coz it was lonely in bunk.

Yao: hey pq when you get married , are we invited

Sivam: carrots at banquet? no thanks. but id prolly go for the lulz.

PQ: o yea you know what i realized? during the 2 years in the army... i think i got stupider

Sivam: ...what?

Yao: yea..wat?

PQ: im about to ord and i realized i forgot alot of stuff. like when i go to movies with my friends, ppl have to explain the movie to me so i know whats goin on

Sivam: lol.. you know

PQ: what? same thing happen to you

Sivam: nope, and you know why? coz i know wahts goin on. its not the army thats making you stupid, youre just an idiot haha. you are the stupid

PQ: =(

Sivam: please, the other two were thinking it. im your buddy, so i have the guts to say it =D. cheer up. no matter how stupid you are, at least you can meat.. oh wait. you cant.. sux to be you

Yao: see this guy has potential

Vik: only on guys

Sivam: please dont it say it that way.

In the afternoon we had rehearsals again. kenneth was there,the old man, law was still mia. went home with jin wei. lucky he live in simei, got company till then.

went home, watched abit of Dennou Coil. not a bad show i know i was having conversation on msn and it went like this between me and alvin. alvin is a guy i met through jason at the cosfest. high power level. of course my power level is low so meh

Me: o btw

Me: for Dennou Coil, everyone is 12

Me: z

Alvin: YES

Alvin: err, i mean ok.

this is proof. of what, you may ask? i leave it up to you.

wednesday i went the morning rehearsals, aft they ended, they said we had a prize giving ceremony in the afternoon, and the Bn had full dress rehearsal. escape full dress thanks to body FFI!.

the afternoon event was just the presentation of the spartan statue to all ord-ing personnel. nothing fancy, just a cool lookin mini spartan statue that can be substituted as a paperweight [ you might think thats funny, but her, its keepin my papers from flying. im suprised they spelt my name correctly , but her, as long as i dont have to return it and wait again.

the body ffi was fucked up. we went there [me, wb, sm, loo, kim, wan, khai.] , they asked to fill out a form, which we did. then we waited. then they asked us to come in, took our blood pressure [mines normal! im surprised!] and took our blood. now im not really afraid of needles, but im not around them often so of course when you see someone piercing you , you do feel a bit sqeamish.. the worst part was that after all that, we had to wait almost an hour for the doc to see us, only to be told 'everything is a-o-k! sign paper and leave pls' and we ended after the rehearsals, so the rest of them left already. wtf.

on the train ride back home with derek, steven and jin wei, i had a freaking runny nose. i thought it was just random. by the time i got home, i had damn sore throat was super sleepy. watched tokyo godfathers [not a bad movie. i like everyone was related to each other lol.], popped 2 panadols, went to sleep.

thursday was the worst day of the week. i woke up feeling like hell. it was confirmed, i was sick. throat was dry, nose was perpetually dripping, and couldnt talk for nuts. used my phone to communicate with everyone by typing. i asked my pc if icould skipped morning practice and go for the rehearsal in the afternoon. he told me to go mo, and get myself checked. was too lazy to go mo early in the morning so i endured the morning practice.

sadly after practice, i felt dead, so in the end I SKIPPED THE ACTUAL PARADE. of all the motherfucking luck. i attened mostof the rehearsals and for the parade , the part that mattered most, i couldnt attend. thank god, no one came to the parade to see me. can you imagine? you invite someone, then they go there, but they never see you. what the hell.

of course, it doesnt mean i didnt invite anyone. i did invite a person, but the person could not attend as the person had other plans. oh well at first i was sad the person couldnt attend, but then i was lucky that the person did not attend in the end.. so that means.. awww..but yay..

anyway, we had a run on morning after, but i really couldnt move from my bed so i decided to sleep over and go for the run the next day if i felt better. i didnt have dinner coz i was asleep throughout the whole parade thing [thats what happens when i get sick. total body shutdown.] for some reason, kim,noh, and wan were in camp until 11. apparently they wanted to stay overnight for the run as well and they had brought food. they invited me over, saying that i was sick and need ot eat something b4 i take my meds again [i was survivng on a couple of panadols and vitamin c tablets. the vitamin c ran out fast [chewable, so i popped em like candy. the panadol... i dont wanna die that early.] . the food was good! it was nice eating with them. although i was not in the mood to do anything. zz. im grateful that they were in camp and invited me for dinner so late in the night. it goes to show some people are actually..kind. rare.

on friday, i didnt even go for the run. i slept until 9 o clock i think, by the time i woke up, everyone had already ran and were showering etcetc.i felt better. was finally coughing so that was a good sign. went home in the late morning, coz the ord function was that night.

lawrence, me and yao. my 2 closest friends during my army life, from mp command till now. law is in nus, yao is moving to england, and me.. i dunnoe. but yea. great guys are unforgettable. stupid lawrence didnt attend the parade tho, the hacker. in case youre wondering. i was still sick and recuperating from my flu, and am im not a photo person. i dont smile, an i tend to look stoned, drugged, a convict, and evil. plus my eyes are small. i think its all of then..never mind.

i still wanted to go for the function coz i paid 105 dollars for me. i dont care how sick i was, 105bucks is a 105bucks man.

i was supposed to meet law and co at 6, but i was late. i bumped into farhan at outram and went with him instead. we met bk, wc, and loo. then we all took the bus together.

the event was ok i guess. thanks to the seating, got seperated from the platoon. but i had pq and khai for company. and my table had hq ppl. like benny, so it was ok.

lets see, event wise, it was meh. the emcee was cute. a little hyper for my taste, but thats her job scope i assume.

something stupid happened tho. in middle of the event, she announced that she wanted 2 ppl from every company who were good in math, [4companies, 8 people, z] to come on stage in 5 mins time. my whole platoon was ready to drag me zz. benny was the other side of the table saying ' oh sivam, you die liao lol.' didnt even help, than jerk.

so there i was goinon stage. i was thinking to myself,'ok math, should be ok, but i dont know who im up against. i only know how to do basic calculations only!!' then, the guy near the stage hands me ... a glass of beer.

FUCK.

lets recap. i dont really drink. well.. ok i do drink cocktails, but thats when they force me out to go drinking, which is almost never. i like the grasshopper, especially at MOS, and Arena. perfect taste. ive tried a Manhattan, a Mojito, Blue Hawaiian. Long Island Ice Tea, or whatever it's called. a Blueberry Magerita or watever. Oh, also a lime daiquiri. why are my drinks so girls? never mind. although the grasshopper is my favourite heh.

i dont touch malts. the yellow stuff [before anyone says 'but you like yellow!', shut up.]. i cant stand the smell zz. so i do drink cocktails, if rarely. i just dont touch actual beer.

so naturally the first thing to pop in my head when i held the glass was 'WTF is going to happen to me??'. the other guy said, theres a slight possibility that they will give us a fraction a ask us to drink that amount... or something.

turns out we played 7up. so we stand in a line, and we start to count rapidly, just that for everyone number with a 7 in it, or a multiple of 7, we say our battalion name. if we screw it up, we need to drink half a glass in a gulp. 2 lives sounds cool.

now that was scary. i never drank before, so i didnt wnat to. my objective was to not drink. so all i had to do was just try and win.

it was going smooth until the4th guy dropped out. me and the other guy from my company had 3 lives life [he drank 1] , 2 companies were down. and we were head to head with the other company 3:3. then i made a mistake! fuck , so i had to drink half right.. i couldnt. i only drank 1/4. then the emcee said 'thats not half' . sigh i tried again. reach 1/3.

and then she goes 'o this guy is cute! like a virgin , never drink b4'

my soul died right there. i got pissed, so i made sure that i wont drink again. we took down one of the guys so all that was left was me[1 life], the other guy from ym company [1 life], and the enemy[2 lives.] so technically same chance of winning.

the next round was easy for me. i was in the middle, so i all i got was even numbers. all i had to do was say my battallion name every 7 times. we managed to take down the enemy once! but sadly the next round, the other guy lost. then i knew i was screwed. depending on where she starts, i'll be screwed. if even, its safe. if odd, i die. 1 life left each side.

i lost. luckily amid the chaos of congratulating the winner, i passed my glass to one of my platoon mates. i cant take the stuff seriously. bitter as fuck. its like... warm tasteless...i dont know, dammit.

so thats what happened in my function. not only did i drink beer for the first time even though i swore never to take malts, i lost in maths competition. know you know my life is fail. I should die right? i mean, what am i good for if i can do math as simple as that?

i still had not recovered from my flu bout so i went back to my table feeling like hell. pq helped my by getitn some warm water. but the water did nothing. in fact the water made it worse, coz my throat suddnely was burning and i couldnt speak for nuts, spent the next half hour using my phone to tell pq to help me get water. my buddy is awesome.

after the function, we headed to clarke quay to party the night. actually i just accompanied lawrence coz i needed a ride home. the rest had fun. Soon Hwa was drunk...im sorry, 'high' as he called it, as he got a number of some chick udring the function. i struck out twice i dont really care. i only did it for lulz, not expecting anything. although why i did it twice was questionable. oh well, take the bad with the...less bad.

we headed to lunar and stayed there until 3am. yao ordered something big and expensive, but didnt touch it. think it was a chivas, and a grey goose. i already screwed myself with the malt so i didnt want to touch anything. i got a water and passed to everyone. they took a sip and said stuff like ' like no taste le.' or 'wat is this, like nothing liddat'. when i told em it was water i got the finger. i ordered a grasshopper from them. presentation wise, it was nice. 4 cut straws to act as legs, 2 cherries, sliced halfway, and used as eyes, the stalks as antennae. taste wise, less sweet. the previous few i had tasted like ice cream, not alcohol taste.. so i guess u can down those, be careful. this one had a strong taste of alcohol. almost everyone got buzzed. they just kept jumping around, shouting 'ord ord' even though like half of them ord in september. the bar was nice. pretty loud..but its a bar. the music was nice. they were only singing chinese songs at first, so i thought...aww that sucks. but they did some english songs, and i must say they were pretty good. they sand the song 'hate myself for loving you' which was also performed at our function. coincidence? i think not.

Soon Meng, Me and Yao again.

another pic. sorry i look like that. i said, not a photo person. ive been puttin pics in my post the past few days coz i learnt how easy it was with windows live writer. fuck yea.

after lunar, we headed to zouk. and met mj over there. we went to velvet underground for awhile. i think i saw fiona xie over there. then soon hwa confirmed by going ' eh eh eh! look look' couldnt care less myself. her hair made her face too big. lol

then we headed to phuture which was crowded as hell. we stayed for an hour, then me and law went back first.

we headed back to the lunar area, to get to the mac for some food. i was in the mood for a mcspicy, but it was already 4.30am. so breakfast was being served. in the end, i had hot cakes, law had..mc griddles. just an expensive mcmuffin imo. then we took a cab back home.

i slept for 2 hours, then i had to go to AH to get my dental checkup

i had to get my wisdom teeth checked, since the guys a my dental ffi told me it looks erupted. i was sleepy as hell but it was fast. appointment at 1015, ended by 1115-1130, effecient. saw the x-ray. one of the bottom teeth was inside the gum which was nice to see. scheduled to go in 22nd. and 23rd and 24th theres an idp function i want to attend to check something. sigh, that sucks.

nothing else special happened since then, been at home doin stuff. so i shall stop her for now. i congratulate whoever got this far. truly the king of readers.

ok this is the end of the post. cant think f anything else, tell me if i forget.

have a non serious picture in a serious post!

[on tuesday 5/8/08. mi and 5 of my platoon mates, went to AMK to eat ice cream at andersen's. someone ordered brownies, someone ordered apple pie, i ordered cream puffs. and we sat there discussing where to go for high tea next week.

it was only on the bus an hour later that i realized how GAY....sorry.. how FABULOUS... that would look and sound if i had to explain. dammit.]

26072008

2008-07-26T13:09:00.001+08:00

Ok considering i have been playing Final Fantasy IV on the NDS [Nintendo is aweosme] and watched The Dark Knight twice [yea. with army, and the players] and its sparked an interest in Dark Knights

as far as i know, Dark Knights arent actually evil, as some people think. A Dark Knight is probably a Polar Opposite of a Paladin. where a Paladin draws his Inner Strength from the Light, and does healing and Protection, a Dark Knight draws his powers from the Darkness. his skills are usually in the form of sacrifice. for example, they sacrifice a certain amount of HP to attack faster, harder, more times, depending. He also doesnt do healing, rather, he drains the opponent's Hp away, transferring it to himself.

A Dark Knight is clad usually in Armour of Black, Dark Blue, or Purple. Spikes and Horns are usually seen, but it just make people think they do devil worship, which may not be the case. although in FFIV , the main changes from dark knight to pally and gets all this holy armour, and has no helmet, but golden hair. and he now looks like a girl urgh.

Weapons wise. probably a dark sword. of course any weapon is good. usually see sword that steal hp on them but that crap. a dark knight is not ncessarily a evil figure, he just happens to fight with a different approach. instead of protecting the party and enduring the fight, like a paladin, he job is to cripple the opponent and kill it.

Dark Knights arent evil, they just do things differently.

on and unrelated note, i watched the dark knight twice cos player 1 wanted to watch. the other option was Red Cliff, but i already played Dynasty Warriors so never mind.

Suddenly, Sun Shang Xiang

She is awesome

[The Forces Morale is up! victory is at hand!

Lu Bu Appears*

It's Lu Bu!

Everyone runs or dies.

Dammit Lu Bu!]

recap

2008-07-26T11:59:00.001+08:00

[this is a post aimed directly to the anime fan i think. i was bored, and someone wanted me o do something on real life, but i dont feel like it coz im watchin xam'd and hidamari sketch currently [2 of the best OPs this season imo, aft which is persona: trinity soul's second OP. other OPs to mention would be... Antique Bakery, Tower of Druaga and telepathy shoujo Ran]

for me, blogginis something i only do when i

1) have nothing else significant to do

2)when something really memorable happens [be it bad or better than most]

3) when im filled with such pure emotion [most sadness, self -pity, and/or rage]

with that in mind. we shall begin. as always, a new paragraph, a random thought

ps: if you dont get the jokes, im sorry.

oh and five minutes into writing i took a break and i hit my foot against the footrest of the wheel chair... and 2hours later it still hurts.. why do i have such a low recovery rate?

it has come to my attention that there alot of girls sporting new hairstyles recently. let us review.

pigtails : hm not bad. its rare to see it on anything above 8 but im seein most sec sch girls with it.. saw a bunch of poly students which i thought was disturbing at first, but it was alright after awhile. it takes me awhile to realize but im actually 22, so its wrong to look. i should be heading to bars or something to meet people. but since im holed up in my bunk or wired to my com, it sucks. ah well its so bad when you think about it. im alone, but at least im not... ... z

short hair : now i for one welcomed this change intially. short hair is awesome. short haired chicks are way way better than long hair chicks, i dont know why. they made it so in anime such as the Hiiragi Twins [Tsukasa >Kagami]

Not to mention the Twins for Rozen Maiden, Souseiseki and Suiseiseki

and of course the best example, the Fujibayashi Twins, Kyou and Ryou [Ryou is awesome][in b4 'play the game faggot' and 'slut hijack'; butthurt kyoufag is butthurt]

the problem is the small percentage of girls with short hair, sporting spiky masculine styles. at first i was meh, but it became disturbing when i saw like 5 or 6 of em together walking. dammit that was creepy, like watchin a dykefest waiting to happen

in short: short hairstyles = superior, just dont go swingin for the other team.

went to cosfest on sunday 7th with jason, jerome and darren. met new people

alvin : awesome guy. naturally his power level is of epic levels. mine is still lowbie coz i do not watch such a broad scope

guansheng [god i hope the spelling is right]: i had no idea who he was until jason called him 'King of Heroes'. then my respect went up over 9k.

apparently both of them know me, coz i was mentioned my jason. i am honoured, but i am just a noob with a low power level. i am not worthy

met jerry also : fancy camera is FFFFFFFFFFFFFFancy.

regarding the cosplayers : i didnt see anyhting on sat coz i ony booked out on sat night [thanks deployment!] but sunday was awesome. Gundam-kun was fuck awesome. kudos to his epic suit. mobility was limited, but he had a huge weapon. and it looked... more real than most.

another memorable mentions..not necessarily in order of important

saw a Yuki Nagato coosplayer : you were hot, call me. Nagato is mai waifu

saw someone who dressed up as Souseiseki [BOKU >DESU] , call me too. best rozen doll ever.. ;_; stupid junk had to kill her.

saw 2 maka-s from soul eater.. sadly i preferred the brunette ovver the blonde.

alot of naruto [doh yea. tards] and bleach [..see naruto].

i was a little freaked out by the number of vampire knight costumes... made me wonder.

Oh. and there was a guy who was wearing some mask that was in the shape of a piece of bread/toast. and on his back he had a card that read 'Shirley Dies'

Sir, if you are reading this, you are awesome. forget all the people being pissed off. you are truly a man among men. and or that you deserve a meido guy badge.

almost everyone was cosplaying.. all the guys i went with were in civi, but i just told them they were cosplaying as random 11s. all we needed was a nice euphemia, and the shit would hit the fan

[PARTYHARD.jpg]

and as you can see , my addiction to anime has gone from borderline to downright insane. i think ive finally become one of them. well it could be worse...i could join an anime community. fuck that.

by now im sure most of you [ the [people who visit, not the people in general..] have watched Hellboy 2 and The Dark Knight. if you have not, ignore the next few paragraphs. if you have, read on. by the way, both movies have no extra scenes after the credits. i checked.

Hellboy 2: it was meh. elves and shit. goblins could build awesome robots, and yet they never thought to use them to rule the world, yet instead chose to ally with the elves. i will never get that. everyone laughed when fishstick put on contact lenses. am i missing something? i have no idea what is so funny about that. was it the size? was that it? big lenses make people go haha?. the emo chick was kinda cute, but emo so no want. elf chick was... hair good rest meh.fights were so-so. auto repair bots were lulz worthy.

there may have been a troll shaman in the market, the one with all the trinkets hangin from its back. that was nice. though s/he didnt look like a troll.

Dark Knight : Truly Epic. i can see why some people asked for heath ledger to receive a posthumous Oscar for his portrayal as The Joker. the magic pencil trick, the whole scars on his mouth skit. 2 different reasons.. lol. the fact that he doesnt do it for the money. he just does it for the lulz. now thats a man with a great view in life. his logic is twisted, yet interesting. i mean, it's not like im going to follow it. but to me it was very nicely put. some people say that the relationship between Bats and Joker in the movie was nothing compared to the comic, but i wouldnt know.Two-face was ok. A blonde, but the only thing i ever recall was the fact that he kept flipping a coin. and he did it in the movie! yea. i wonder what would happen if it was tommy lee jones again. lol.

o yea. at first i thought two-face's mutilated side was the right, but then i confirmed it was actually the left. sorry if i told anyone i thought it was the right... zzz

and with that we end

[names changed.

a: haha i broke up with my girlfriend finally

b: huh why?

a: coz there were alot of problems

b: you know, ive been with my girlfriend a long time. and when we have problems. i learn that if you sit down and discuss it, you can sovle or..compromise and it should be ok le..

a: i also been with my girlfriend a long time. and there have been a lot of problems. i thought of discussing, but then i realized, its way much easier to just break up with her and not be bothered anymore

b: ....

a: plus she sucked anyway

b: ok

god dammit conversations in my bunk are awesome]

[you know the thing about chaos?

it's fair.

Heath Ledger. manly tears]

Races

2008-07-16T22:57:00.001+08:00

the following is my opinion, and after reading lore and wathcing various movies, i have come to conclusions

Races of Earth [that god forgot to let us know, or killed. ether way]

Goblins : The Goblins are a race that are experts at building. no one knows where the reesources come from [70 x 70 golden droids for and elf king? what the fuck] but their skills in craftsmanship is unmatched, cept maybe for gnomes, but we all gnomes suck

Gnomes: they suck, see above

Dwarves : Easiest of the lot, the dwarves, are shorter than humans, have long beards [even the women, yeap.] they are heavy drinkers, live in the mountains or caves, and are closely associated with mining, gems, and ale..

Elves: now here is where its get confusing.

when people were kids [everyone was a kid once, even kenneth. and he is old.], we were thought that santa stays in the north pole and has a workshop which is managed by elves. apparently the elves

: wore green and

: were no taller that santa's knee

: had pointed noses and a wierd grin.

these are NOT ELVES.

they cant be. everything else that you learn ocne you are 13 [for guys] and above 13 [ for chicks, unless u watch lord of the rings for orlando bloom; why is he such a manwhore] you realize that elves are not anything like that

a true elf, from what ive learnt is

1) taller than most humans, probably by a head on average

2) have long blonde hair, or bring colours, maybe goin to auburn or copper at extreme. the rare ones with black hair are thought to be the awesomest! [woo arwen]

3) they are nimble, and agile, and more associated with weapon craftsmanship. while dwarves are the masters of axes and deep cutting, the elves value grace and make swords that slice the wing.

think of it in terms of if humans are warriors, the dwarves are berserkers and the elves are more of blade dancers. although an elf is also skilled with bows probably. they have no use for firearms as they value and respect nature.

4) elves are mostly connected to nature and the elements. and elf is usually one with the forest, and the blessing of nature flows through them. thats why, elementals are a valuable ally, as forces of nature are awesome.

Now santa does not work with long tall leggy blondes who make toys with him. my theory is that santa's helpers are either imps, but that is my opinion. they fit an image of imp to me. even if you can get an imp in a suit...

Orcs

Orcs ae ugly. and green

Trolls

most people depic trolls as huge bastards, cept blizzard with their jungle variety. the rest are bridge trolls

Dragons

another confusing one. americans depict them as winged lizards with leathery wings that are able to fly. they have long neecks and possible rounded skulls

the eastern dragons are more snake like, and glide through the air. they have long whiskers, elongated skulls

there may be a third type, with small leathery wings that serve no purpose, and crocodile skulls, and the inability to fly.

by the way, recently , earth's obsession with elves, have given birth to dark elves. apparently, elves who fall under the sway of magic. they sport darker coloured hair, and darker skin.

in other words, nigger elves, but bluer.

thats all i got for you now, im writing stuff coz im bored.. until next time!

2008-06-18T20:20:00.001+08:00

test post from my new com.. so... TEST

Post to my past

2008-06-15T16:03:00.001+08:00

Dear Sivam of 1999

if you are reading this, either a miracle happened, the internet bugged out and you got a letter from 9 years in the future, or i lived long enough for time machines to actually go backwards in time instead of going forward only.

things you may need to do:

Invest in google, facebook, rice and oil. you can thank ourselves later.

when your friends ask you to play world of warcraft, STAY THE FUCK AWAY from it. its not that the game sucked, its coz you have no willpower.

during the next 4 years. dont go chasing every single skirt. you are truly an idiot. improve your social studies or something. get to a jc, get into uni doin physics or watever.

no one will respect you if you do anything good, but they will be on your case if you fuck it up. so dont fuck it up. attention isnt as good as it sounds.

if you happen to go to poly. try to remember the advice i gave you regarding skirt. now they are shorter and flashier, but you must resist. go pick up a sport.

computers are ok. but anything with MMO in it is to be fucking avoided.

if you happen to think a girl likes you and you want to ask her out, go through this template: can you picture yourself with her for 1 year? if no, drop it. if yes, go for it. if she says no, tough [yes it will happen alot but it should soften the blow since you know its goin to happen thanks to me]. if she says yes, dont screw it up.

you will meet 6 people in secondary school. those are going to be your good friends for life. so make sure you dont do anything stupid.

if you happen to go to poly, you will meet another 4. dont screw it up with them.

the people may laugh at you for buying a nintendo ds instead of psp. dont worry, we are superior, and nintendo will rule the world one day.

the advice i have given you may the change the future drastically. if you choose to ignore it, you continue a path which i have already walked, and let me tell you. its not really that good. but i leave it to you because you are my only hope.

will you accept your fate and find happiness, or will change your fate and find glory

Counting on you,

Yourself of 2008

p.s. your parents will tell you alot of junk, but they have their moments. try to filter the wheat from the chaff

[2 little birthmarks on right forearm, scar above right eye, and left forehead. believe it already?]

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well.. this was random.

Reset 12/06/2008

2008-06-12T16:46:00.001+08:00

yo.

ok im making this up as i go because

1) im goin to camp soon

2) my thoughts are all jumbled up and clogged so there is alot to write, but i have no idea where to start and finish so it may be all over the place

3) my mood is influenced by the songs i haer in my pod now until i finish which is now:

[Kataomoi Fighter by GO!GO!7188]

sue me if i have any grammar/spelling errors, you english nazis.

so in the past few months, alot has happened. but then again when i think about it, its really stuff that would be normal to most people[FU... nevermind]

im goin to ord in less than 3 months? and then what am i goin to do? no idea what have i been doin so far? i remember, i forget, i remember, then i realize it was worthless and i want to forget.

2 things i would like to hilight

1) when i was working with Winston in Terminal 3 during deployment [happened in march i think. winston broke his hand and is happily playing WoW at home, that lucky jerk] i met Nicholas

you all dont know Nicholas

Nick is my childhood friend. well i knew when i was 5-9 [at least i knew him when i was 7 so i just gave or take 2.. z what is wrong with me]. apparently he was working at the airport as well as a patroller so yea. so we were talkin about random stuff.

Me: M , Nick: N

N: hey i know someone from your school!

M: didnt we attend the same pri school, so that probably liekly

N: not that. from your sec sch.

M: what [at this moment i felt fear. deep fear.]

Winston: W. suddenly he is very attentive

W: really?

M: really? who?

N: Usha

M: [mental *facepalm*] really? tell her i said hi next time you see her [its the polite thing to do, thats what i always say]

N: she told me alot of interesting stuff about you.

M: i bet she would

W: i wanna know!

M: no you dont

W: i wanna know what sivam was like in sec sch.

M: seriously you dont, otherwise i would tell you about myself and my past

W: but you never tell anyone anything

M: thats coz no one needs to know. and if they knew, what are they gonna do? its the past, its over, its crap. i dont care about it, so why should everyone else?

W: i care!

M: i dont care if you care

W: so mean

M: like i said, dont care

W: Nick, say le

M: Nick...

N: but its funny! wierd, but funny

M: you gotta be specific, i did alot of stupid and wierd stuff in sec sch and poly...nevermind. point is, its nothing

N: really? she told me about the time you *some text missing*

M:...

W:...

M i dont remember doing that..

W: OMG WHAT THE HELL

M: thats why i said its unimportant, and why the hell do you know about it nick

N: she told me about it when i talked to her the last time

M: that is just... yeah.

the three of us proceeded to argue about my life and the essence of it [65% stupidity, 30% recklessness 5% slight intelligence(i have my moments i guess)]

so apprently i did something like that once. i cant remember it at all. im certain i would remember doing something like that if i ever did it. but then again im not surprised if i had done it.

but really thinking back. if i had done it i would remember. the only time ive done something like that was in poly[sorry 'chiyo-chan'] . but usha said i did it, nicks thinks i did it, winston said he cant belive i did it. i dont remember awww.

the second incident was when i met my poly mates for fun

it was may, a date after my birthday

o yea, i had my birthday. happy 22 *shrug* dont feel different. i got an sms saying that she didnt forget. of course i think she gave her standard template of 'take care' in her msgs to me, which is usually a sign to not reply or to discard the msg.

its true! i was discussing it in my bunk with AJX and he came to a conclusion that when people say 'take care' they dont mean it. its just a polite way to say goodbye. then now its customary to say take care to each other before we leave. and when we come back everyone is like 'hey did you take care' and fake concern

damn my platoon is full of awesome.

wow i complimented my platoon. ok.

anyway the msg was nice i guess, i just dont see whats the point of doing it when she is silent the rst of the time. unless she is a bounty hunter. but what are the odds of that.. low. i could forget about her. but my weak mind is weak lol.

anyway yea, 22!

so i met the poly guys: Shawn, John and Pat.

these 3 guys are prolly like my sec sch friends. they knew i was an idiot, but for some reason they still let me stick around. and im grateful for that. shawn was gonna buy a guitar, and he said the other 2 were coming, so i went anyway.

everyone looked the same. not many changes, although i think one of them has a plan for the future already [gratz!]. then were walking and we were talkin about random stuff. connected to the rest of the people

and then realized i did stuff in poly. it went like this

blablabla

Shawn[S]: haha just like the time sivam *some text missing*

Me[M]: haha. wait what?

Pat[P]: heh i remember, it was nice of him but mean of her

M: huh?

P: remember

M: ...nope

S: ... really?

M: well i wouldnt put it past me, sounds like something i would do. but i cant remember

S: wow let me fill you in

Shawn proceeds to tell me the details, with John and Pat helping

M: hm.. i did that

J: yea you did

M: wow.. i think i passively suppressing memories. and now i remember.. thanks

J: no prob

P: haha yes yes you and your bad memories.

i wonder if it is because im growing old, im forgetting stuff, or if i just suppress these memories

or maybe i do stuff then forget about it at the drop of a hat coz im like that. meh.

we went to get shawns guitar, then went to johns place to fix it up. my first time in his house! pat and john risked their lives to restring john's guitar. they survived =). then shawn left as he had to attend an event, and kristie came over. it was around 7 so my john pat and kristie went to have dinner.

katong laksa= win. price was good. taste was great. then i went home. heh

...tts it really

other than that nothing special has happened. i will update when i feel like it

i'll see you when i see you [lol]

['Oh God, a little part of me just died inside'

'look on the bright side, that was the weak part. so now you are stronger']

my two week break

2008-04-27T21:34:00.001+08:00

ok so not many knew i had a two week break in april as a reward for being on deployment for almost 10months in a row [personally i think they did coz someone higher up finally realized 'DURRR HEY HOW COME THESE GUYS ARE STILL WORKING' and before the shit hit the fan, they let us go for awhile]. i went out like 5 times. so i will try to write abt what i did. i cant really remember the dates. but its in chronological order, so that helps!

first event was.. Vivo

hm. met law and yao at vivo ard 6plus i think? i was late coz i said i wont be comin so early. i actually did not get lost so.. yay. law made mi to the handshake in public when we met. so goddam gay.

6people attended. me, law, yao, ken [this will be known as the Main Group] thomas and soon hwa. soonhwa was wearing this gay pink t-shirt, and i asked him abt it. and he told me something irrelevant. he said ' cleavage is like time, squeeze and you will have some.' and he proceeded to squeeze his chest. biggest fag if i ever saw one.

dinner was carnivore! expensive [38 +10%service+7% gst. ard 45?] but it was quite nice. special events

went to the salad bar [yes, a place called carnivore, has a salad bar. the irony was thick] the stuff was pretty decent

the waitress was 'sweet looking' as quoted by soon hwa.

carnivore is fun. nothing but stakes filled with meat. there was one with fish but thats ok. there was one with pineapple and that was ok too. the pineapple was pineapplicious [wit? in my blog? it's lamer than you think].

the thing was pretty easy to understand. people come around with staked filled with the sacrificed animal and as you if you want some. you say 'yes' if you do; 'no' if you dont. i had chicken, beef, lamb, pork,[not ham], the blankets [ sausages wrapped with bacon AkA lethal bullets.] Soon Hwa was a fag. didnt finish what ever he took. he was an even giant fag for taking a bit of everything and keeping on his plate like a bloody collection. he even had his plate 3/4 full and he could still tell the waitress, when she asked if she could clear his plate, that he was waiting for the fish. AND when the fish came, he took a bite, and left the rest there. oh well..

i lost to waitress 4 times. won twice. if case you're wondering. i like drinking water. [see my previous post[s]]. she kept filling my cup whenever i was like 75 to 80% done. it was the 'sweet-lookin' one so i guess thats ok ^^. i managed to finished my stuff later so..yay.

thomas went to buy some motivational posters [yes. motivational posters. that look like this. only cause hope instead of despair (like mine do)]. then we went home.. yay.

there WAS one thing that has been buggin me since i went there.

in the vivo carnivore [im not sure if any other place has carnivore, smeone go check] the placemats on the table has little tidbits of information [you know, for some reason or another] a line kind of stood out

'Knife-welding chefs'

this is confusing.

sure, knife-welding, the process to join two metals to make a knife. but.. what is the frigging point? i mean, in my head its wrong , it should be 'knife wielding', since they go around, with knives. maybe they do weld their knives, but is the info relevant to the food? i dont know, maybe its just me. if someone were to kindly check for me, tell me again next time. i asked ken and yao, and they said its logical but strange. yao kept saying 'knife welding, sure! they weld their knives.' but to me... wtf knife welding, who the fuck cares?

so someone please help mi check. is it a spelling error? do there really weld their knives? and if they do weld their knives, what makes them think that we should give a floating fuck about it?

end of post. im suposed to book in tonite and i am so... yea.

~~Carnivore~~

Drinks at Esp

Shisha

Chili Shots

Sushi Movie

Platoon Outing

on a lighter note id like to tell you guys something.

so im in camp just wearing my underwear [you dont have to actually picture it.]. and someone tells me to put clothes on. so i put a shirt on. and he comes back and says to put some pants on. now if he wanted the pants specifically he should have said that.. but then it got me thinking

when you are naked, and you put on a shirt, people dont care if you put something on. it just draws people's attention to your complete lack of pants!. wtf. its not fair.

o ya i forgot lol it's 3 days to Ms. Yip's birthday. Happy Birthday, Ms. Yip!

A Whole month of Crap, Right Now

2008-04-24T13:21:00.001+08:00

Notes to... take note of:

1) I hope you like text

2) if anyone has pictures of me, for some goddamn reason or another, send em to me so i know?

3)if anyone wants me to delete their number, tell me so i dont waste my time. and yours

yo. same rules. since im bloggin a whole lot of crap that happened during a huge time period, the stuf fis not only all over the place, its also non sensical. in this case, please assume whenever two sentences dont seem to link up, they actually DONT. i dont want idiots going ' HURR I DUN GEDDIT.' wastes my time.

using windows live writer and we shall see how it goes.

17th of March

booked out an hour ago. WOW i blogged an hour after i booked out! not a rush job after all! *insert whats left of my pride here*. apparently my family was outside [ past 10! on a school night! what the hell]. but yea.

[on the bus back to camp from airport.

thomas: kenneth ur hair is long

kenneth : no its short!

T: long

K: short!

ken looks at me and pulls his hair : eh sivam, short right?

stare at him or 10sec

sivam: yea you are short.

[ken= shortest guy in platoon]

ken kept silent the rest of the trip.]

18th of march. Daniel's Birthday

As Player 2 [Dan / Xtra] was turning 22 and i happened to be off, the gang met up.

Players! ASSEMBLE!

Player 2 [Dan/Xtra] Red!

Player 3 [Me/ Blitz] Yellow!

Player 4 [Russ/ Arte] Pink? Green?

Player 0 [Jon/ DueZ] White?

Player 1 [Jeremy/ Noob] (Blue!) could not make it. ='( without a leader, we were stranded! [Update: Player 1 is curently in Taiwan. coming bakc in the middle of may. he did say he'll be back for the Blitz so im keepin my hopes up coz apparently thats what i do best]

so we ended up going to sakae suhi at dhoby ghaut.

Odds things to happen.

1) we went to place and sat down. we asked abt the buffet and they said it doesnt start for another 15 minutes. and you know what happened? we all took out our portables and started palying while talking. it was liek a reflex. we went 'oh ok.' and suddenly 3 PSPs and DS [Nintendo, Fuck Yea!] were on the table. One Final Fantasy 7, One Final Fantasy Tactics, One Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles: Ring of Fate and the 4th was... cant remember but nvm.

2)As usual i sat near the sushi train. i have to, coz i dont like sitting at the edge. im left handed so my water cup is always at the edge, and if my hand were to move awkwardly, my cup may fall, and i will lose my precious water. Sure, they have refills, but its bad. although i have to squeeze to not inconvenience the right handed person trying to eat at my left. its part of the kindness

3) the eating battle ended up pretty much the same way. Player 2 had the top score [where does it all go?]. the rest of us were just trying out stuff and seein how it goes. for some reason i like okonomiyaki but i guess whatever works. THEM SOFT SHELL CRABS ARE PURTY TASTY HYUKHYUKHYUK [hillbilly blitz.. wow im lame]/

i felt kinda bad asking for water refills. As you know [those that dont, dont really care, but they never come here , so it's awwright] i dont take soft drinks. my only drinks are water, ribena, yakult, milo. and watever that is non gassy and i can lay my hands on and doesnt taste like chalk and ass to me. i asked for a couple of refills coz i was thirsty and i ran out, but i still feel bad about doin it [Guilt Complex].

it reminded of the time we went to pizza hut. i think all 5 players were there. whatever the reason, it's lost to me [ probably player 2's 20th. yea player 2 is epic player] we ordered 4 pizzas. i think all were thick crust [tip: dont order thick crust, thin crust is better. but will they heed my warnings? of course not.] 5 of us 4 pizzas. not small ones, 2 large 2 normal i forgot. point is we couldnt finish, and i had to ask for 6 water refills to help mi wash down everyhting. during the whole course of the dinner, i had about 6 glasses of water. [wasnt total refills. sometimes my cup was 1/4 filled. sometimes he filled to the/3/4 mark] {i know it was 6 refills coz i counted.}. i felt really bad for the guy, coz it was the same guy coming back to us helping me fill up. i apologized twice so i guess its ok. i suggested he keep the pitcher at our place but he said no. but the point is i suggested so yay ^^.

after sushi we went to play pool and this is another odd thing that happened

i won.

not one game. but two games. IN A ROW. do you know how fuckin awesome that is? its rare to do that. we have player 0 with his geometry skills and luck. player 2 with his luck at impossible shots [behind those glasses, lies a man of mystery] player 1 was not there, but if he was, he would wipe the floor with us. as me? im only good with yahoo pool. as long as i see a bunch of lines, im good. course when i play pool i visualize the lines and shoot. it works most of the time[3 balls pocketed in a row, personal best] but considering i havenplayed yahoo pool in a while, my skill has dwindled to almost nothingness. but yea . 2 games! i must have been extremely lucky [ i had luck. TO THE EXTREEEEEEEMEEE. OH YEA]

Player 4 was kinda depressed. Apparently it was girl trouble [ le gasp!*monocle falls into my lime daiquiri]. player 4 never has girl trouble. player 4 is the ladies man. but apparently he met a girl that stirs emotions thathe never felt b4. at first i thought it was rage, but he said it was love, so since its his emotions he should know. we had to helped. i actually helped [usually i get women troubles and he'd be all 'omg sivam sux lol' and bully me. but i cant do that to him] so i just gave him advice with a dash of humor, and sneakiness. coz thats the way i do stuff. player 4 is our oly surviving wow gamer so we have to help him too. player 1 has gone to psp. player 2 goes old school. as for me, im into anime and manga, and player 0 is mapling [worst end=X] but although we went our different ways since elysium [my first game, and the proof of the everlasting bond of the players!] and we had a stint in wow together, they are the still the only guys i trust since i was 15 years old [13 doesnt count coz in sec 1 and sec 2 i was...an idiot]. conisdering posibly everyone else in my sec sch, and poly [except for a select who know who they are] can die in a fire, the players are the BESTEST EVAR. more on that later.

anyway too long didnt read? BIRTHDAY = YAY

i dont remember anyhting else happening until my off so i'll just talk about what i did during my off

need to write alot more... the stuff i need to write are

Carnivore

Drinks at Esp

Shisha

Chili Shots

Sushi Movie

Platoon Outing

will write soon. just saw my blog was a month without post so did this first. until next time!!!!

i need a goddamn laptop

Apparently Some people do not seem to understand the difference between comments and suggestions when they write down stuff in surveys. let me help you guys out [coz thats what i am! a helper]

COMMENT: YOU ARE AN IDIOT

SUGGESTION : DON'T BE SUCH AN IDIOT

simple? remember these two sentences, and you should be fine

2008-03-23T00:53:00.001+08:00

yo guys.

happy easter pic!

2008-03-15T03:08:00.001+08:00

this story. is full of win.

2008-03-15T02:43:00.001+08:00

test test. no idea what to write... hm maybe i'll just say something random...

KING OF HEROES, DO YOU HAVE ENUGH SWORDS?

2008-03-14T16:09:00.002+08:00

yo

its the 2nd of march. which bring forth the question: WHERE THE FUCK DID FEBRUARY GO? first January left me without a trace , and suddenly, feb just disappeared. it isnt so bad, the romance month of year is gone. every cloud amirite?

these few days have been the same old.. i managed to finsh rune factory on my ds. now just trying to complete some side quests,see if i can marry tori with all the girls still 10. and i just unlocked lynette too, sigh... oh well i got enuff time i think.. and no new games are coming out until next week [Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles Ring of Fates! or FFCCRoF for short.]

6th of march

booked out on wednesday... apparently players 1 an 2 were free so we unofficially decided to go out.

spent the day reading volume 1 of suzumiya haruhi [ melancholy. aka half the anime series.]
not too bad. pretty uneventful otherwise.

ard 6, got the call. 6.30 at tamp. told him impossible. but i'll try my best. had a shower, ironed clothes, shaved. blablabla.. 6.35. needless to say had to do other stuff so i said im leaving my house at 7

took the 7 bus and met player 1 at pasir ris [aaprently aft 7 , the bus doesnt go to tamp, so dan had to wait moar. LOL]

we decided to go watcha movie. i suggested L and they said ok. but sadly.. they were not showing it at cs so.. we checked the other options.

Meet the Spartans: Junk
some other crap i cant seem to remember: more junk
10K BC: hm.. less junky sounding

so we chose that.

had dinner at kfc. talked abt random stuff. we were almost late for the movie. but thats coz we took time to buy popcorn

ok now for the movie review

10,000 BC. or.. 10K BC. or... 0.01M BC.

out of 5: 3 maybe [ my opinion, dont troll me]

quick recap.

10k BC sucked. dont watch it unless u really have no other movie to watch. which was why we did. [ no L: Change the World? sigh.]

aper thin plot, although the girl was hot. action was GAR. but nothing compared to 300. [ that was truly, a man's movie]. the action sequences were ok. alot of gaming references were in my head a some points. but hey..sabertooth tiger! rocking.

10th of march

still working but non a nice 2day/2off shift woo

MSK is still on the loose. surprising how he can still evade capture. must have some points in survival.

wat exactly does it mean to be kind? is it to do something without expecting anything inr eturn? wont that just cause people to take advantage of you? and woldnt that be screwing yourself over?

wat is.. love?
Baby dont hurt me, Dont hurt me, No more.

14th march
y0 [usual rules. a new para, a new thought]

considering have not blogged in over three weeks, i apologize. shit happens whether i like it or not, and as much as i want to write about it. i always think abt it during work, have the uge to write it then, then scan the crap when i come home. but i dont have a scanner, neither do i write it when im at camp [lazy]. maybe with the new rule change i should be able too.. who knows. as long as i got someone to tell me how to scan and post that would be fine. and who knows? maybe it will improve my god forsaken handwriting. although, it would prolly just prove how much my handwriting sucks. how i have fallen. oh how i have fallen. and yet... i cant seem to pick myself up.

work - wise..all is good. stepping down next month. then i get 2 weeks break.. then after that is solid training. im lookin forward to the trianing although i know im gonna collpase. i gained alot of weight. i broke trough the barrier i set the last time.. which is disturbing... gotta lose it soon. gonna diet first. maybe do a self detox. [apple juice for three days. owned.] then the healing shall begin. i wonder whats gonna happen. bad stuff.

my logic is warped. the train of thought ... is warped as well. i also realizze when i do sudoku, that i have low logic. and i go 0 common sense.. sigh.

heres a scenario. [scenario may be fictitious]

lets say u meet a girl.. and u guys have the time of your life. as friends [its possible , its true.]. u guys lose contact after awhile [shift happens] and u suddenly find urself talkin to her again for no reason. now during one of ur conversations she tells u, that she had a crush on u years ago. but she doesnt now, oh no. its cause the time aparts has extinguished that flame.

now, what are the allowed reactions? happiness coz u know that u went through life being loved, because i dont get that. all i think of is... confusion, sorrow, then nothingness

just exactly what is the point in tellin someone this now?

ts better to love and lost, than never to be loved at all. is that it? is this what you are trying to tell me? coz im only gettin that. and all i get so far.. is rage.

i dont get it why its the guys job to do it on time. if u chicks always fight for womens equalty, u take some of the initiative yourself goddamit

of course, im accepting my lady friends explanation of a possible mindfuck. it is possible if it done to u, she is just stringing you along so that you could go all crazy an run to her. which is what you should not do! the race of succubi are vile and troublesome and if given half the chance, would slit your throat.

just for your info.

nothing much else.. prolly start. actual writing and posting..soon.

[ me and winston at T1

me:eh , china ready for 2008 olympics anot? hows the cost of stuff
winston: u ask me for fuck? i from china meh
me: i dont know. u keep asking mi if i know the workers. i from india meh?
winston: .... ok

small victory. but futile.]

2008-02-23T20:12:00.003+08:00

hi [long post sorry. i wonder why i do this when no one reads, then i realize i do it for myself lol]

yea back for a day [the schedule is rockz] so yea..

booked out yesterday, then rushed down to the furuma? furama city centre for my cousins wedding [o wow im actually 22 this year.. so all my 25+ cousins [age, not number] are getting married!]. it wasnt so bad. things i learnt.

i was late so by the time i go there, changed into the suit, and sat down, dinner was over.

my dad's mom was there [even tho it was a cousin on my mom's side] because they invited her as a formality. which to mi was wierd coz both sides are total opposites [see next point]

the functions for my moms side are noisy. and not like ' oo this music is irritating' noisy , more like 'how in the ten thousand hells of lord chaos do people talk when this is being played?' noisy.
god dammit even my music wasnt able to drown out theirs. as compared to my dad's side. where its all about gossipi.. i mean talking.

one of the waitress helpers there was pretty cute. i smiled at her but that was it. im a wuss. but she did have nice hair imo lol.

some of u are going LOL INDIAN WEDDING. but my moms side is pretty mixed. as in alot of crap. chinese malay.. bla bla. there were white people too. will wonders ever cease. my moms side is pretty.. far reaching. theres something abt a chinese lady in a sari doing a dance that makes just wonder how SG is the MOST ROCKING PLACE IN THE WORLD.

when i reached home, i actually went to sleep. sigh.

one wierd thing was that whenever i go to weddings, relatives all ask the same question. 'how are u', 'when u ord' and' what u gonna do after i ord'. so basically all i have to do is record a tape saing ' fine', 'september' and 'not sure' and i dont have to go for any of these functions. which really doesnt matter. i just say ' hey my bro's over there' , point in that direction and hopefully they all move that way. works well for most people except my nieces who seem to only want to bother me wth. ah well

but yesterday i got the most disturbing question ever. when the bride and groom were doing their rounds [that sounds military-like but watever] and came over to our table, i was like yea 'congrats vish [bride was my first cousin]' and she was like 'omg sivam? woah ur taller now'

and im like..'yea' [apparently ive done nothing eventful in my life so the onnly compliment i get is that i grew taller. which is sad coz in my platoon, im not that tall..]

the other comment was ' wow he's a man now huh'

and then i it hit mi.

in a few years time, people are gonna sk mi 'when are you going to get married'.

so lets get this out straight.

i. cannot. get. married.

why you ask?[u actually care? awww]

because of certain situations. first of all. i got something to take care off whether i like it or not. thanks to that i already feel that my future is decided one way or another so i pretty much gave working hard for anything when i knew the results wont be able to take mi on a different course but rather the same course just at a different pace.

second of all i dont think i can find a girl whod be able to handle this. so instead of burdening someone with this crap. might as well let the girli adore be happy for her own sake.

people fall in love. but someday, something will click and u realize that the fire is gone. and then u divorce. or u stay together, hoping that somehow while doing that, the answer to the problem will reveal itself.

just ask yourself when this happens, and u reach the end: 'was it worth it? did u find what you lookin for?

2nd of all, i think im in interested in someone already.. but thanks to all these years of certainty im not sure. which really doesnt matter, coz i havent seen her in months and shes always bz whenever im on off. i dont even know why i even persist. usually i ask, get a no then i leave without taking a second thought, but for some reason. even after we talked about, i actually want to..
'breathe'.. try again. yea TRY AGAIN. what the hell happened to me. something in my mind just clicked. maybe its because i actually think it would be worth it. but thats just one opinions. if i had a second agreeing opinion [hopefully from her] then at least it wuld be ok but i dont even have that. but what makes me think that this one will be so frigging worth it.

[Thief and Pally]

i have yet to find out.

also i was talkin to my dad so it goes like this

me: ok if i ever get married, and that is a big big IF, i am not doing this kind of crap. too noisy.
dad: fine by me. just use the money u saved and buy a large screen tv for me.
me: wait.. so wheres the grooms side of the family
dad: o they never approved of the wedding. so they're not here
me: so all thse people her are all relatives and friends of mom?
dad: pretty much.
me: wow wedding without both families. wierd.
dad: are u kidding? mi and ur mom got married at swensens.
me: what?

yea its true. apparently, my dads dad didnt approve of the wedding so my mom and dad got married and had a party at swensens LOL i found this hilarious and also it makes sense considering i saw little photos. but yea. cool wedding. surrounded by firends only means.. win! i told mi dad maybe i should have mine there too. tradition sake. he told mi to save the money for the tv. gotta admire the man for that.

prolly think abt it. i want the tv myself.

i got nothing much now.. will add later

[CSI Miami. template.

flashy orange background with lotsa buildings.

disco with lotsa dancers.

someone getting drunk. then having sex in a room.

suddenly. death! from 5 angle! not the process of killing, just the victim!

Horatio Kane : whats the scene.

Random dude: homicide, victime, female 20s. blunt force trauma at first glance.

Horatio: interesting, blood patterns indicate movement. she wasnt killed her.

Random: she points to the bed, what was she trying to do goin to the door.

Horatio: [puts on his sunglasses]

Horatio: Dying to get out.

YYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAA!]

was it funny? maybe i tried too hard

2008-02-03T22:16:00.001+08:00

YO!

sorry for the dead blog.. between work and gaming , its been hell.. new progress has been made though

WoW has been uninstalled... 3 months clean!

Got Clannad. brief summary? totally depressing. its sad arc , one after another. i played Fujibayashi Twins, and Hiiragi Kappei b4 i booked in on 13th.. was depressed my whole valentines [mission accompolished] . Best arc so far is Tomoyo . but thats coz it showed than any relationship can withstand time, if you work at it. sadly when u think about it, the main is only doin this so he can get the main girl [more lights, more luck?]

catchin up on anime. Clannad [anime] almost ending.. so is bamboo blade. the new season of anime looks promising but oh well, wont know until i watch it.. current series and comments

Clannad: first part was ok.. the middle looks jumbled... tomoyo, kyou and yukine arc all mushed together... [storage room, gang fight AND school lunch with the twins? wth]
Bamboo Blade: one my favourites this season. so bloody moe. [Azuma Satori is love.]. has action, comedy, no romance [yay] and has the cutest girls ever.
Sketchbook~ full colorS: series just ended. was a great anime. recommended if u wanna try something slow and slice of life.
Minami-ke Okawari: cant hold a candle to the first season[teardrop mouth ftw] art is done differently but i like my randomness
Shion No Oh: for some reason, it makes mi want to learn shougi, but that just crazy. main lead is cute as a button tho. has a trap in it. but then again, so does minami-ke.

Valentine's was spent in camp. played Harvest moon on my DS during off hours, after watching animu on my pod. rewatched ef~ a tale of memories~. good show with a moeblob. introduced it to a friend in camp. he said he liked the music. but too bad it did not get hmi hooked. my partner is hooked on clannad and bamboo blade tho.

will post more when i feel like it.

and now, a parting word..

..

penguin

[Q: What is love?
A: Baby dont hurt me. dont hurt me, no more]

lol.

2008-01-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

the following post may not make sense
in fact, the part may not seemt o flow together, so the best solution is to take a paragraph at time, assumin one paragraph is a new story every time. there is no timeline so just keep reading and pretend is something new and refreshing.

yo

yea i haven blogged since aft new years whoops, guess im lazy as hell..

lots to talk about i guess... if i remember, i'll just type whatever enters my brain..

im supposed to do uni application stuff and whatnot this year..in feb or jan or march..well asap i guess.. since the timeblock is now.. my parents said something abt goin overseas but i dont think id do that.. mainly coz if i went overseas alone, id prolly go out of control

no no shooting out of control, more like winter-een-mas out of control

fortunately id avoid women, so no unplanned pregnancies. but i guess id go all hikikomori and just watch anime till my eyes and ears bleed. or somehting like that. the problem is i tend to lose control sometimes.. dont know why.. the army is supposed to make mi disciplined , but all its done so far is prove to mi my weight fluctuates.

not that im blaming the army. o yea, they say u get stupid in the army, like slowly, ur brain matter just shrivels up and dies. ive experienced it, but i dont know if its the army's fault or my own personal undoing. ah i guess i'll figure it out once i ord

i should really start applying for uni and stuff right? shud have done it twice b4, but i guess i was lazy and really didnt do it coz i didnt feel like it.

bt then again.. what do i really feel like doin? is there a future i can see for myself? i dont really see myself working or studying or doin anything really.. i just see myself just.. lazing around, being an otaku or something. coz i cant do that thanks to the family's demands [WOO FAMILY -.- _|_]. i kinda figured out by the time i was 12, after psle that 20 years from now, id have to suppport more than myself, even without gettin married [which im not mind u lol]. that was pretty hard. but then again at 12 u had dreams! to be an astronaut [imposible] or rich guy [ hard, but not really impossible..techinically.]

but when i graduated from poly with my pathetic score [yea i did sucky coz i was stupid.] i realize that ppl look at u differently

my army mates thought i dropped out of poly. am i really that stupid.. or stupid looking -.-. sigh cant be helped i guess. coz with my gpa i might as well dropped out. tho i think my dad would kill me. meh.

haven played gh3 ni awhile.. played LOTRO for a bit, decided to p2p, but then p[laye 1 said it as boring.. so now we have no game.. guess its back to no gaming again ^^.

but i did try my first visual novel... my thoughts? fun. the writing was nice. it was quite funny at points such as the part when one of the girls scolded mi for insulting her in my inner monologue. how the heck she read my mind, i dont know.. managed to unlock all the endings for the 5 girls.
my favourite ending is still the reunion one. after 5 years, the girl he loved came back. and all he said was 'okaeri' [welcome back] and she said 'tadaima' [im back]. i just 'awwww' then. sadly that girl was the best friend of the girl who loved mi, so it was sad at some parts. like when they started fighting. not really 'aww' but ' hm' the ending was still 'aww'. the other 4 girls were ok. good writing, not so good picture.. something abt the faces.. like the old version of drawing.. like from kanon [ not 2006 kanon]. but still a nice storyline... if i can fix my com up, id play clannad. ppl say its quite good but then again, i get my information from 4chan

i learnt in4chan that im a weaboo otaku with a powerlevel of less than 1000... =( but still i go there sigh.

all i can think off.. need to get ready for camp soon. will write more stuff, more often. yea.

cheers to the next few days. nobody die.

I am the bone of my sword
Steel is my body, and fire is my blood
I have created over a thousand blades
Unknown to Death
Nor Known to Life
Have withstood pain to create many weapons
Yet, those hands will never hold anything
So as i pray, unlimited blade works

-Emiya Shirou

2008-01-02T13:11:00.000+08:00

first post of the year..

the year i ord..

the year im supposed to further my education which is impossible because

a) im a otaku/NEET in the future by the looks of everything

b) i was an idiot then, and the amry didnt make it any better. course blaming them isnt the answer

most liekly the year i will snap..

2008... u ready?

[be warned, the land itself will rise up against you. long forgotten terrors will smother your courage. sacrifice everything.

in the end.. all that awaits u .. is death]

if i end up alive till 2009, i will wonder why.

i purged my hp once again. now its at 41.

i deleted all mmos from my com.. now it only has anime, clannad VN, and soon harugeki.. thats it.

to those that ive talked to all thsi time, the players, xiew, finley, xr[rare], renj[wish i coould more often] thanks. hopefully it wont be so bad this time.

to the rest, talking to u was good but it wont matter if it breaks.. cant be helped.

2008. its begun.

2007-12-26T12:42:00.000+08:00

ok so i booked out xmas night at 10..reached home ard 11.30, which sucked and now i have to go back to camp by 4. i had less than 18hours at home! omg wtfuck..blog more when i come back on the 27th..hopefully. heh.. until then, see u guys around!

2007-12-20T20:41:00.000+08:00

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Ef~ A Tale Of Memories. for those with some time on their hands. Chihiro Shindou ftw. even tho her memory.. well, you'll see.

while rec is at its best esp at the last epi, Ef is good all around.. its just that it may take 5 -6 hours to complete it and the last ep only comes out next week as well. REC is already done, and the romance is .. ok. but i love Ef~ chara developement.

hm i remember in the beginning of dec i was thinking of doing a xmas wish list but then i thought to myself 'too early wtf u gayz' so i waited.

and thanks to 3 deployment shifts, its now the 20th, and wishing now is too late [ HAHA look at me, im actually assuming i get what i wish for in the first place. i = dumb]. so since it wont make any difference. tadaa!

Blitz's Wish List

1) Date with Aya Hirano
2) A Pet Chocobo! [cmon genetics!]

meanwhile, on earth

3) Famous Amos Choc Chip and Pecan cookies. 400gm =D
4) Optimus Prime Large Poster to hang on my wall [Animated and CG. Prefer Animated]
5) Complete works of Gary Larson, Creator of one of the Best comic there is [The Far Side]. if i had a fraction of his talent.....
6)Yuki Nagato Poster [obvious Reasons]
7) Kara Kent [Supergirl!] Poster. animated not the star that played her -.-
8) trip to japan! but meh cant.

tts it i guess. 1,2 are pretty much impossible.. 2 has less chance haha. 3 is my best bet.. followed by 5. 4 and 7 i think i can go somewhere and get it

i wont be home till xmas nite [hurrah for work!] so in advance, merry xmas to the ones i love. which is pretty much all of those who visit, and those that i wish would visit again.

I'll make a new years eve post. u dont have to anticipate it. but just wrote it to remind myself too.

2007-12-20T12:06:00.000+08:00

j0.

lets see.. been two weeks. nothing happened.. go to work, come back. dont go out until go to work again.. pretty dull i guess

playing wow and watching too much anime at a time, but then again i got nothing else to do.

i think a friend of mine is back in sg but im not sure. not sure if the person is back, and not sure abt other stuff.

prolly play guitar hero today, unless the influx of translated anime on thursday overwhelms me tonite. as for now. might as well complete Hitohira and go for something random like REC. updated: just finished REC. wat started out as a wat i thought a ecchi anime, turned out to be a very sweet romantic one. recommended if u have like.. 2hrs to burn. [u'll finish it in in less than that if u skip the OP. although its good.]

my list of anime is increasing, but its nothing compared to the rest of the people i know. o well.. same as always right?

nth else to report. just worried abt my existence .

cya

[Then I'll become one, if that's your wish. Tell me what you want me to be, and I'll become one with all my heart']

2007-12-09T14:10:00.001+08:00

btw, i love Aya Hirano , if i could meet her, my life would be full of win. heh.

2007-12-09T13:55:00.000+08:00

ok dont have much time.

booked out..went to buy guitar hero, had lunch with dan, went to wow private server. made some lvl 70 hax charas [ret pally Axlel.]

tts it really.. guitar hero is fun... i keep screwing some songs bt thats normal i guess.. althought its worrisome at easy.. im a bad gamer.. which makes mi wonder why the hell i keep doing it anyway..

work sucks. xmas is comin. but i'll be bookin on tt nite. be having xmas eve at work.. so... woohoo.

nothing much to talk about... had alot to say..but no time to say it. if u care, then ask mi lo. if not, why bother with anything

triyng not to die..

bb

23122007

2007-12-03T14:26:00.000+08:00

with reference to my post on 211107, its true.

parents always try to raise their children right so that in the future, they can tell others about their children or grandchildren..

on one side, its like braggin rights. 'yeap my son's a doctor' gg pwned.

on the other side, its more of a validation of their role as a successful parent. i mean... u cant raise a kid up for 18years, then he does somethin criminal.. the first thing that runs through a parent's head is ' where did i go wrong?'

as much as i dont want to burden my parents with that, it seems that it is indeed, unavoidable. anything i attempt , results in failure. its my fault yea. but what if they blame themselves? and even worse, what if other people , their peers, the peers of their peers, and strangers, all blame my parents too?

please. whatever that comes to me, its my fault. dont ever blame them orite? and dont link it all up like ' o hes like that, and their other kids are also like that so obviously they suck' or watever.

sigh cant be helped. im pretty much a jack of all trades yet incompetent in every single one of them

life is full of despair and worry

[the best present i can give my parents, is the faith in their parenting... if i cant give that, i fail as an offspring, and as a human. no matter what they say, it will probably hurt them the most.]

2007-12-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

yo

booked out sat night. had the whole of sunday free [a weekend. yay.] as usual, did not do much, which is a prime example of my life anyway.

sigh. the bad thing about blog hopping is that sometimes u read stuff that really, makes u sad , and wish u never read it. but then, you would be lying to yourself, so why bother. zzz today i learnt that i can never be someone important to anyone or about anything.

do you think everyone has the potential to do great things? that everyone is destined to change the world. when i was younger, i thought so. i thought anyone could be anyone they wanted.

then everything crumbled.

people like mi, are not meant for greatness. heck, im not meant for normal things. there must always be balance. no light without shadow, no evil without good, no despair without hope. if everyone were to become great, wouldnt that be norm? with nothing to compare it to, i would be a normal thing.

some will rise above the rest, but the great Order will also ensure some will fall below, to restore balance to the world. i dont know where my place exacttly is, but i know for sure, i am not destined for greatness

oh btw i got a haircut. hopes its pass-able. walked home from white sands today, while listening to metallica. not too bad. almost got distracted while climbing the fence thing. ah well. at least i didnt die right?

nothing else much really.. bookin in tmr. need to do some xmas shopping. up next is my damn xmas list. things i wish i had or seen, but if i nv get it, its no surprise =D.

[We all cant be heroes. Otherwise, who would be at the sidewalks to cheer us on?]

No matter how much i fail, apparently i cant seem to give up when shes involved? either im very devoted, and hope that some day she'll understand and know.

or i am very stupid, setting myself up for a very very big disappointment.

either way, i bet it would look cool on camera.

Optimus Prime, i am lost.

2007-11-27T10:49:00.000+08:00

quoted from a comic i read

'Life is funny

You Start out with limitless potential, but time is always shaving away the possibilities

every choice you make , is a choice to not do a thousand other things

whats important, when all is said and done, is that you made a difference

your choices, and everything undone, have to mean something. Otherwise, what was the point

i often thought even if no one knew of the good i had done in life, it didnt matter

that it was done is all that counts in the end'

-Black Belt [2001-2004]

wonder if its true.

certainly life is funny. not 'ha ha' funny but more like 'what in hell' funny.

if you could go back, what would you change? prsonally id prolly go back 7 years, fix something up, and hope it worked out now. sure i may end up worse off, who knows, but then at least i know i tried.

meh the past sucks.

2007-11-21T00:14:00.000+08:00

do parents really think about the future of everyhting b4 the sleep at night.

seems stressful imo.

i wonder what my parents think about.?

worry about what the future has in store for my bro. he cant survive on his own.. so its not his fault. its not their fault either so it cant be helped.

worry about how my sis is gonna improve her grades. no way a pri schooler should be doin that bad. would they blame themselves for it? i wont blame em? but still.. its a parent's responsibilty.

worry about how their eldest son is actually ruinin his life doin othing productive, and instead of improving his life for the benefit of everyone, is instead slowly destroying everything he holds dear, taking along everyone with them

10years down the road, when everything could be in chaos, would they still blame themsevles ask question each other 'how did we raise them wrongly?'

pfft. mom, dad its not ur freaking fault la. its mine definitely, but i dont have thepower to change it.

so if, and i say IF, you have the urge to blame urselves of the state of your offspring in the future, please dont.

coz i really, i dont see anyone at fault but myself.

the only advice i can give ppl who know me, is that to tell ppl they love, that when they grow up, or go out, stay away, from people like mi

[truly worthless. want to change, but i cant. because im an idiot who cant handle the world well.]

2007-11-09T20:24:00.000+08:00

yo

lets review some things , ok

1) Deepavali is the Festival of Lights. It symbolizes the triumph of good over evil. Light over Darkness. Optimus Prime over Megatron.

It DOES NOT, i repeat DOES NOT, represent the New Year.

i wonder how many people kept saying it was the new year. the new year for us is in april.. this is more of a harvest festival thingy i guess?

[There is a slight possiblity that it symbolizes the day, the Aryans conquered their enemies. the aryans were fair , and may have been interpreted as light.. i dont know, what am i a historian?]

2) its is not bloody polite to skip deepavali decorations, and start putting up christmas decorations, silver tinsel, with big words saying ' JOY TO THE WORLD' at this time of the year, fully skipping deepavali. what is the matter with you SG? u 'overlooked' it somehow? idiots. one day after deepavali, u take it down, and start prepping for xmas, i understand [what cna i say, its not really that important to u.] but skippin deepavali, and puttin xmas decos, one day BEFORE deepavali itself is just a freaking insult.

i know christmas is important. in japan for example, christmas eve is the second most romantic night o spend with your loved one [first being of course, Valentine's day], but still.. hi?

get your act together, remember we make up a certain percentage of the population. unless we need to be THIS big, b4 you'll consider

asshats.

i actually met someone i never knew id meet again, and yet alot of memories came. ah to have a second chance. but then i may screw it up again. coz thats my life.

05112007

2007-11-05T18:36:00.000+08:00

yo

so ive changed my blog title.. when i first made the blog, it was the zone where normal things dont very often. it reflected the life i had in poly, all the fun times, the bad times, and all the odd times.

but nows, its been 3 years, and all that i have is... Despair.

so. welcome to the Zone of the Despair! [The Whole world is going to hell! And ive got the keys to the van]

anyway im going to camp tonite. strangely i dont feel that bad abt it. at least in camp i know, im safe from everything else. i mean, they cant really kill u in camp [they could if they tried but hey, i keep my hopes up]

sigh i completed a few anime series this week. most notable is Binbo Shimai Monogatari. set in japan, it tells the story of two sisters who lost their mother when they were young. father left them in debt, so they live alone together and try to make ends meet. categorized as drama with comedy in it. some ppl consider it yuri, but i think otherwise. its perfect sibling love. its cute la.. but then some parts are quite touching i guess. dunnoe whethere to laugh or cry.

another series i did over the week was Canvas 2: Rainbow Colour Sketch. Funny. not really as sad as suzuka but it was romantic. the ending was a disappointment though. he chose the cousin!
sigh whats up with that. true, it wasnt like da capo [I hate Nemu] , but still it was pretty creepy.

this week, if anyone cares, go and watch Moyashimon. Perfect Slice of Life Anime. its pretty slow, but its quite funny at some points. Sketchbook~ Full Colors as well. im kinda into slice of life stuff now and its very interesting. theres not really much romance, but its more on how the characters interact and develop over time..

by the way, alot of animes have been goin into comedy recently. examples such as Clannad [Please PLEASE watch this.] and Myself;Yourself. but set in high school and stuff, im kinda waiting for it to turn into another School Days Clone. School days was disturbing, considering the last epi was totally horrifying [im not spoiling. go see if u want to]. i wonder if the rest of the them are goin to end up like that. laugh now i guess, the sorrow will set in soon enough.

like life, when u think abt it. u enjoy the good times, laughing, loving, having fun. then , before u know it, despair and sorrow will fill the land, and u realize that all that u do, is futile.

what drives you guys to do what you do? people? yourself? other stuff i have no idea about? i feel like i am missing something in this grand scheme of things that i cant seem to find ever. will i end up like tomoyo? heh [DElinquent] or something far more sinister. the darkness around me is indeed vast, but i cant seem to be bothered about it anymore. the sweet embrace of death is all that awaits me.

as people age, new problems arise. there will come a time when i have to take over everything. why? coz i have no choice? why me? coz there is no other person. if i could, i would refuse it straight away. but no. i cant, coz im not that soulless. and i can never bring anyone to my burden because that would make me a horrible person.. well, in my opinion anyway.

which is really a blessing that we r just friends. and not just her. im lucky im just friends with anyone. the best piece of advice i can give to people from now on, is to not get too close to me. damaged goods o no... lol

nothing much i can think of right now so whatever

Current Song: Clannad OP and ED [Dango Daikazoku]

[ how selfish of me to not want to get emotionally involved, yet not let her go. but then again, its not like she likes me anyway. it should work out]

2007-11-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

hm

i guess when i think about it for a long while, i realize that no matter how much i feel for someone, i dont know them at all to base my feelings.

for example, i dont even know her favourite colour [i guessed right, but i didnt know], her birthday [i actually had to ask her. zomg!], her likes, dislikes and stuff. i only she has someone important in her life and thats it..

i guess thats the diff between friends, and something else right? hm. maybe i should try to understand people more, instead of rushing through, gun ablazing and demanding or somthing like that

i should try to get to know her better... but is it too late? and where do i begin.

people keep secrets frome ach other. its a defense mechanism, coz if u say too much, they have the power to manipulate and black mail you. but if a certain level of trust is attained, thats ok.

she's nice, funny, able to take my insanity, and interprets the whole in a her own way, that i find refreshing. but rather that just being friends... is it possible?

perhaps , when it comes to affairs of the heart, lord stormrage probably sums up the problem for me : 'You are not prepared'. he's right.. he definitely is right.

nothing further. Blitz Out.

[i remember she said that we were 2 wierd people.. or something like that. why cant i recall the exact statement? because i was not focusing right? or was it, coz im just a lazy sod?]

2007-11-01T14:56:00.000+08:00

i feel overstimulated

dozens of anime series, with an average of 20 episodes per

hundreds of songs..raging from metallica to dragonforce, anime OPs and EDs ,

Games like wow need to be plyed to hit 70, and i need to upgrade my com to play hellgate. and possibly any game that comes out after that.

and you know wat i want to do? nothing

i just want to lie down and wait.. but i cant, coz everytime im unsure of what to do , with the presence of a myriad of events, my legs just burn up and i cant seem to concentrate.

i guess the stimulation affects mi physically as well as mentally.

ironically, all the important things, like finding a place to study in the future, and driving , are not in my mind at all. i guess thats a sign of a selfish person right?

[Step 1: Ask her out
Step 2: Get Declined
Step 3: Apologize, say its ok, and wait

Lather Rinse and Repeat for as many times as you wish!]

2007-10-28T15:25:00.000+08:00

hm.

have u ever been so sure of something but then have it blow in your face? that sucks right? this is why taking risks is bad. the disappointment recieved willjust send you into despair.

personally i was 100% sure that it would work. but then in the end, it actually didnt. zzz. i guess i never took into account her emotions and thoughts.

i wonder what happened to me after a certain point in life, that turned me this way. i also wonder, that if i went back to that point, would i be able to change everything? meh. who knows.

[i cant survive the future. death only awaits. too many ppl depend on me, and i cant even help myself. if i want to do wat i wanted to do, id prolly just disappoint them further, and fail at it anyway. causing my pain.]

well, sorry. but in my defence i didnt ask for this. wtf i wanted a life alone, but no.., apparently when in the future, im still gonna have to support all this. screw it.

[its hard to typed misty-eyed]

28102007

2007-10-28T10:43:00.000+08:00

yo.

bookin in to camp today.. so my check list is basically..

cut hair
get new books
charge everything
make sure i dont forget important stuff
psychologically get ready for training
dont play wow
get some ribena [done =D]

goin out later to cut hair and stuff

attended Ree Yi's Birthday last nite [Happy Birthday Ree Yi]. it was fun! first of all, the music was great. generally the 80s = win. kylie minogue etc. i got Rick Rolled but nobody got it so its ok. the birthday cake was brilliant, absolutely brilliant. cheesecake with strawberries, raspberries and blueberries on it. total bliss. lol

but the whole of saturday was spent sleeping. slept from when i got home to 8.. 8-12..12-2..had lunch..continued to 5. zzz wasted a whole day. but when u think about it, it wasnt any different that any other day so i guess its ok..

went out friday nite with renj. had dinner at popeyes at SCA. not too bad. the coleslaw was good imo. then waited for her to finish her shift, then we went to the viewin mal/hall [i cant remember.. i hear both phrases] then i was thinking who i would see on patrol and waddya know.. my second buddy AJX lol. then we talked for awhile then i went home ^^.

Lawrence passed SOC. zzzz i think i gonna fail. oh well. a week of training 'should' be able to change all that. but thats theoritically speaking of course...

nothing much really.. watch anime.. play games.. read some books. ^^ same old stuff

camp in 7hours.. bb long leave. been nice =D.

KTHXBYE

[they say if cant be with the one you love... love the one you're with!]

25102007 [Joyner's Birthday]

2007-10-25T00:14:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Joyner

11102007

2007-10-11T09:01:00.000+08:00

hi

Hirano Aya''s Birthday on monday. XD 20!

sigh i think i wasted my life.. cant be helped, maybe i should try to disappear. or something...

lets see the options available to mi.

local uni: dragon year+my grades = low possibility.. i dont wanna repeat poly life.. uninspiring course+ crazy me.. just mi a financial burden rite?

overseas uni: the thought of it alonne makes my cash go down so thats a no...

but then i cant game my whole life away.. apparently... and regardless of what happens, i need to take care of my bro no matter what happens i guess.. leaving him in someone else's hands would prolly be murder on my part. z. not that i can do anything better myself.

what exactly is the point in telling me to make plans for myself, when in the end, i have to follow ur plans, in order for the good of every. u know what? screw everyone.

the future? i dont know.. i really dont know..

kthxbye

[if i could repeat my life all over again, id just do all my mistakes, only sooner.]

01102007

2007-10-04T01:18:00.000+08:00

A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love huh?

u know when u think u can read someone, and then u try to read them, then u realize u dont know how to, but u only realize when u do something so stupid coz u assumed..

me: but i thought..
random guy: u think who confirm? army phrase, applicable in real life.
me: sigh.

i have bad judgement over things, hence my lack of leadership qualities. i cant seem to make good decisions or i either think too much or too little. which then causes a wrong chain o event.. thing with life is that there is [sadly] no save points.

take my recent encounter.. i actually thought that she'd actually feel the same way.. logic pointed out.. rep and complements present.. it wasnt really the perfect outing but i guess it was ok by my standards[ hm maybe thats one prob... dont g out much] or maybe its really just nothing but mutual frenship. but still it kinda sucks when that comes out.

kimi ga itara kawaru...

anyway ive got a bunch of free days till sunday..then my schedule is here and there..but i do get 18th to 28th off.. so i guess thats good =D.

what has been happening lately... hm... stephs quiet.. pris seems stable, and renjs working.. so the only 3 girls i msg are all happy on their own.. i got my ds, and i have zelda on it.. so thats ok too =D

so anyway...today 4 oct i went to snetosa for some company cohesion thing... the thing was in the morning, and i rocked. so many japanese girls everywhere... someone looked 16-18 but they were so freaking cute.. nice hairstyles, glasses, fashion sense im not sure [do i look like a chick to you?] but yea.. Meganekko Kawaii! [there was one that looked like Sanae Nakajima from Sumomo Mo Momo Mo. <3. [Fave Chara coz: short hair, meganekko, Iincho, and voice by Hirano Aya!] anyway the tour was ok, the race was ok... it was hot but i managed to get myself an ice cream [ vanilla of course =)] so i was content.walked ard the place talkin about crap and stuff

will more when i feel like it

kthxbye

[hm so the japs were mean to us during wwII.. but look! Anime! Sushi! Cosplay Girls! call it even ok?]

Meganekko are hot!

25092007

2007-09-25T12:22:00.000+08:00

HI!

btw: 24 of spetember.. Russel [Artemicion] turned 20, and Jason [Zephiris] turned 21. gratz to both. many more years to go rite? =D

and i just realised i forgot to call zeph yesterday to tell him i couldnt make it.. im so mean ><

woo back... bookin in soon... leaving in like 2 hours prolly... ken msg mi to come early and play soccer [what sivam? play soccer? thats madness!] so i'll prolly go earlier and do some self pt! '

work was ok.. shifts gonna end soon then i get a break in october... taking leave i guess to clear it all..dates are all over the place but mainly around the later half of the month. anyone wants to know, msg me ^^..

nothing important really happened.. hopin the phantom hourglass and revenant wings come out soon for the ds, not to mention ring of fate [english] and thump thump witch judgement.. if taiko came out in eng, that would be the best, but alas, such a dream is impossible..

speakin of impossible, i wonder if aya hirano will ever come to sg? xiews says no, and asked mi to save for a jap trip.. cant speak the language..not much anyway [worse that patty-chan. lol 'i dont understand those hard japanese words~~']. ah well.. Aya Hirano! <3

went out to watch a movie yest. not too bad [the movie, not yesterday] then had pasta mania for dinner. they took away the inferno, but i had the salami, consolation. then had cheesecake for dinner coz it was a craving. heh. went home full and content, and got a guild group for maraudon that night. went orange, then back of purple, then princess.. 4 man princess!

Sivam: 50 rogue [thats me!pure subtlety build with sahdowstep. burned prep, 2 vanishes, a sprint during the fite, just for the dps and shadowstep premed ambush 2ss evis!]
Artemicion 50 mage [thats russ. fire mage.. lots of dps.. we had a duel..he raped mi in teh first one...detected mi while stealthed z..second one i won..barely though..]
Youguys: 50 druid [nice guy, fun to play with. cannot hold aggro one! LOL jkjk /hug youguys]
Paka...parak..patkah...Squepiggy's alt druid [lv55: was tanking the first part and healin and dpsing in the latter areas.. expert player.. his cat form owned mi...couldnt do a damn thing to him. ]

but the plus side is a got a new dagger and completed all my quests that night and this morning.. only have to go back there for items and exp.. exp mainly if im grinding too slow.. but up next, the temple of at'al hakkar!

ppl take risks for different reasons ^^. what i did yesterday caught both of us offguard.. although i could feel very wierd, and yet calm.. crashed and burned though but hey, nothing new

nothin else... see u guys saturday nite!

KTHXBYE

[would it be evil of me, to wish that she would change her mind? course not, its human]

19092007

2007-09-19T13:08:00.000+08:00

j0...

was gonna blog today, coz at first, was supposed to book in on thursday...

but thne someone calls mi, and says 'book in later at 4pm'

so now i rush a post to ensure to those who care [yea both of you] that i am in fact, still alive [wonder why].

Lucky Star has ended... 24 episodes of pure joy.. one of the few animes i really enjoyed =). more animes are ending... Nana for example... Potemayo... Kaze no Stigma.. School Days, Nanatsuiro drops. Zombie loan ended.. its was nice.. esp my Michiru! <3

animes to recommend.. go watch..
Lucky Star [Miyuki! Minami! Patricia! what do you not love??]
Hidamari Sketch [Miyako is the best character ever]
Zombie Loan [nice views ond eath and what not. but the two yuri scenes with yomi and michiru make up for it.]
Sayonara Zetsubo Sensei [Possibly the next big thing.. Komori-chan =)]
School days if u take it =) [Setsuna all the way]

and for all you lolicons [prolly PQ and kenneth.. but they dont watch anime so nvm] Moetan ^^

ok reallife wise... nothing is happening.. gotta wait like 5 months until she is free again.. but then again its not like im doin anything.

music wise : Aya Hirano's God KNows dominates my ipod.. and for movies, im happily watchin the ironman trailer.. have u seen it? kick ass. the suit is same as the comic and toon so i approve. Robert Downey Jr. as Tony Stark absolutely is perfect. but theres gwyneth paltrow.. so yay! not to mention, The Dark Knight will also return to the big screen next year.. not sure abt the actors.. but all i know is the villain is The Joker [my favourite villain of all time.. he had a sense of humor, and he was evil incarnate]

thats all i got really.. im really a boring person. will type more next time. promise, i'll close wow for awhile, type something meanigful [thought it may come off as emo and depressing but still].

KTHXBYE

The Statement Below Is False
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The Statement Above Is True

endless hours of fun right here!

13092007

2007-09-12T17:17:00.000+08:00

j0

ok this will be mostly ramblings. i cnt be bothered to put in a timeline, or make it flow.. just assume every new paragraph is a new thought. dates will be displayed if remembered. but no promises. its from the top of my head

Hayden Panettiere did an FHM and Vanity Fair Shoot. HOT! especially in that black and white number. man to see her in real life for five minutes..ooh. [coz 1 minute is too short?] nice blonde and good looking. <3. the short hair in the vanity fair shoot did it for me lol

sigh now my parents say if i do chem eng inlocal uni , they can pay for the whole 2 years and it shud ok.. if not..the last year of uni gonna be a prob.. which is bad coz i dont wnna do chem eng.. but i also dun wanna go locall [cant go anyway...] and overseas...only can pay first year.. pwned... really in a dilemma here..might as well just apply and see how my luck goes.. sad...brace urself for this

i think its a bad choice to watch al pacino movies when you are full of rage.. i think that was a bad step for me.. esp when i learnt abt stuff that happened in chem eng during the last year..then i watched 'Scarface' and 'Godfather' . it just builds up... of course im emotionally unstable to begin with so what the hell lol.

they say the eyes are the windows to your soul.. i wonder what do you see in mine? i dont see anything in mine when i look in the mirror.. maybe coz im not a believer.. the essence of blitz is just no visible is it?. im not sure. someone tell me sometime =)

in order to succeed thru life, you must triumph through ordeals.. i wonder if i have had any real onces to go through before.. not sure myself.. maybe i havent, causing this attitude.. hard to shake off.. if only the flow of time wasnt so ... onesided... [two words: SAVE POINT].. course who wouldnt want.. i wonder.. physicists keep sayin there is no time at the Planck Scale but thats not thepoint lol

work was ok.. just tired.. my new buddy is a slacker from a slacker area. and he plays a PSP the fiend.. doesnt matter.. my DS owns. brain age and cooking mama for the win.. by the way, its funny to see people staring at you when u play cooking mama on the train.. i do it just for those faces lol.. course the rest of the time is lunar knights [its harder than i thought...].. waiting for ring of fates and zelda and ffxii - 2 of course ^^

i had that dream that involved the girl agn.. [just some random girl.. faceless.. but damn ice blonde hair.. shiny and smooth as silk.. how do i know if its silky.. coz its my dream damn it =)] as usual whenever im tourbled she comes... whats her problem...like the inside of me coming out to console me.. which makes you wonder why is my inner self a woman in the first place... so the conversation was abt my theme song.. the first time i did a survey, it said my theme song was ' back in black' by AC/DC. that spurned my interest in the band [Btw, thunderstruck is a classic, listen and be awed]. she laughed.. i asked why, she said 'heh black..funny isnt it?' and i smile and say 'yea... unique' . she then asks what did u want as a theme song for your whole life till now, and i tell her 'Desperado by The Eagles [if you dont know, youre useless.] and she says it makes sense.. i ask her 'what did u have in mind' and she says this..

nothing really.. but from me to you, i just wanna give u 'all you wanted- michelle branch'

and then i wake up an realize its 3 in the bloody morning, and im waiting for my next shift.. so naturally i just stayed awake thinking abt this while reading my discover mag [worlds largest Hadron Cylinder! i wanna go see it..]

uh nothing else to say i guess.. i wonder when all the people who went overseas are comin back..nad in so, i wonder if i have time to meet em.. the previous meels visit i couldnt do anything.. so i guess wait another year.. wendy has been gone since last year zz.. i used to talk to sara lots..but we drifted... like that anime said it will

and with that..my brain is at rest...but for how long? sa. no idea..until next time

kthxbye

wonderful night.

2007-09-07T10:29:00.000+08:00

j0.

ok im bookin in later today..in like 3.5hours actually.

this bookout was ok i guess.. started out good..then it went downhill from there..

just a few more months b4 i can see her again.. and with this schedule of mine, its gonna be hard contacting her. cant be helped rite?

i wonder if that mmorpg , perfect world is any good.. sounds interesting

edit: turns out there is not assassin class.. phew thank god i haven downloaded it yet. LOL [i hate archers!] [but hunters are ok] =D

the start of a noather mass stretch of deployment! i hop get thru.. the last one was quite the killer. heh

my future is bleak! z

kthxbye

[5 more months..]

how des one start a relationship? the phase that goes from friends to more?

06092007

2007-09-06T16:54:00.000+08:00

j0

i think another good reason why i cannot be a commander is because i dont make plans. and even if i do, i never seem to make back up plans

everything has a pattern.. thats how sequences form, and execution begins.. the flow time helps, assiting u to victory, and hindering you, handing your ass back at you.

booked out on wed.. goin in on friday.. apparently this 4 days 2 days thing may be permanent.. so deployment officially sucks.. and just when i updated my wow.. i cant afford to pay 50 bucks for just 10-20 days of gametime..its just not worth it.. i havent decided

msgs!

to May: prolly wont see u for awhile.. take care of yourself and try not to do anything stupid. and if you do, dont get caught.

RenJ: had a great time that nite.. but you wouldnt know.. im a wuss z.

Players 0,1,2,4: i think the future is bleak.. what should i do?

Steph: let her hack ur account again. it was fun.

Wes: it did not go as plan. go as i said.. im a wuss.

i really need to learn to adapt to my surroundings, and think of backup plans. that way, if it doesnt seem to work out, i can at least change it

but then again, i cant think that far can i?

i wonder what the future has in store for me? aside from a boy one year younger than me, stuck with mi for all my life. sigh.. what would it be like if it wasnt like this

kthxbye

[Optimus Prime, Light my Darkest Hour]

23082007

2007-08-23T12:59:00.000+08:00

hi

so im on off till tuesday nite.. have to be in by 10pm.. should be able too nothing wrong with that

what shall i do for the my break? anyone wanna go out? i havent watched simpsons >< and i want to.. bournes done.. so simpsons left..

found a new anime to watch

Sayonara Zetsubo Sensei [So long Mr Despair]. quite funny.. jumps around..the animation is unique and the easters around are hilarious. basically its about a teacher who has lost the will live.. totally depressed [yay] and his everyday life in school.. the students all ahve different personalities and it revolves around how they interact.. if u have time, go check it out on veoh!

nothing much to write.. 7 more lvls to mount for my rogue.. and i got 5 more gold to go b4 i can safely spend money XD.. 85g! 5 more to hawkstrider! will post pics of Sivam whenever i feel like it =D

nothing much to do anyway.. anyone wanna do anything, just msn, sms, call or tag me.. other than that.. anime and wow!

200820007

2007-08-20T11:46:00.000+08:00

HI! (i am going to try to write decently from now on. just wanna see how deep ive fallen and if i can get myself out)

alright so it has been a week since my last post. this is my final shift before i take a one week break. and hopefully it will not be interrupted by troublesome events such as the army half marathon.

work was ok. nothing special happened. although my ipod was jammed at the end, around 2 hours before the end, and i was sad.. and i was about to listen aya hirano's 'bouken desho desho?'. on the upside, i did manage to listen to 'God Knows...' , which is an excellent song. currently up there in my list a favourites, along with:

Led Zeppelin: Stairway to Heaven
Guns N Roses: November Rain
Kylie Minogue: Love at first Sight
Queen: Bohemian Rhapsody

there are more.. but these are the songs i cannot live without.

speaking of which i had a couple of interesting conversations with some people during duty and going home.. same motive..wondering what i was interested in.. for example

cast:
me= me
him = shahid from c4 [we took a cab home coz he lived in tamp and since it was on the way i and i was tired to take the bus. early to home = early to wow]

him: ok i know u want to listen to ur ipod during the trip but dont. coz im bored and in order to pass the time until tamp lets talk

me: ok... what would u like to know?

him: hm.. what type of music do u like?

me: me? hm.. oldies mostly

him: wha?

me: u know.. beatles, eagles, led zep, queen

him: holy shit. really? u look like the kind of guy who listens to rap and rnb

me: yea i get that alot [its true, ask the people. but i forget which people so dont ask]. not into it though.. i prefer the stuff before i was born u know? Stairway to heaven u know?

him: hell yea! one of the best rock songs ever made

me: mm hm.. and pink floyd's dark side of the moon, wish you were here..

him : [expression on face clearly indicated omg-ness] omg really. and here i thought u were some punk into rap haha. what other bands do u like?

me: -.- noo not a punk! uh.. rolling stones? the stones and beatles influenced most of my early days. then i drifted to the mellowness of floyd and led zep.. queen is still timeless. and when i was younger, i liked abba and bread and the Bee Gees^^

him: wow now this is something i never expected from you.. im into it but not as much as u.. but i think you and ym dad can get along.

me : [expression indicated a stun lock] heh yea i get that alot..

which got me thinking [which is bad sign.. coz when i think, i go overboard.]. i remember in poly when i was sitting at the orange bench area and pat, out of nowhere, turned and said

you know when i first saw u in year 1 i thought you were a punk.. a badly dressed punk noetheless..

me: oh? what about now?

pat: now i realized ure not that bad

me: uh. ok. thanks.

now why am i classified that way.. i figure it becoz of how i look.. i know when i let my hair grow long and tried for the squall look, it made mi look look like a geek and a lunatic [my hair is too wavy, so it curled at all the wrong places]. when i cut it to spikes, ppl thought i was a punk[even though i was going for another look].

people judge you by what you look like.. all those phrases like 'dont a judge a book by its cover' and beauty is only skin deep' are just phrases. their purpose ? to remind people not to do it.. but yet even when they say that, they still judge books by their covers. they dont practice what they preach. 'do as i say, not as i do' huh? oh well it cant be helped.

Moral of the Story: what is inside a person does not count, because no one can see it. the only time when the outside doesnt matter, and the inside counts, in when ur buying strawberry jam or peanut butter.

unrelated note: i went to watch the Bourne Ultimatum on sunday with jeremy and daniel [aka wizzy and xtra. aka player 1 and payer 2. if u ask who is player 3.. you obviously have not been paying attention]

from now till the end of the article.. jeremy will be p1, dan will be p2.

so i met p1 at pasir ris coz i missed the shuttle bus.. had to walk from my place to the train station.. took longer than usual.. a sign of my fitness going down.. he asked mi to buy a psp to play final fantasies. [ not one of them..all of them]. tempting.. but i still got ff3,4,5,6 on the ds to play, finish and complete. so we discussed some stuff until we reached tamp to find p2. we went to cs to get the tickets. and like everytime i go to tampines i see grace chen

alright, what on earth is going on? i go to tm, i see her eating at pastamania.. i go to cs, i see her doin something for her nails. its.. spooky.i dont get it.. maybe shes into me. or definitely shes not ^^. conincidence yea

so we had dinner and bk, and went for the movie at 9

The Bourne Ultimatum:

one word . Fan-Freaking-Tastic. its hyphenated so its one word. Jason Bourne is the best assassin there is in this time. from the beginning, you already are thrust into the action. the way he fights in close combat is amazing and his ability to stay cool and keep an emotionless expression just leaves mi in awe. now i like assassins. rogues thieves whatever. thats what i play online in any game.. unless i try somehting interesting..but mostly its the quick hitters and hiders. jason bourne is one hell of a combat subtelty rogue. i cant remember how many funny scenes were in the movie, but one towards the end was hilarious. SPOILER: when he infiltrated the guys office lol.. the fight scenes was fast, just way i liked it. and the deception and levels of forward thinking were amazing.. i wonder if u learn these techniques or is it more of a gift.. i guess i will never know

Morale of the Story: Matt Damon is Jason Bourne.. kick ass!

thats it for this post.. its long coz i used alot of lines.. but when u read it.. its suddenly over.. oops. more to come next time..

for now.. i have to ponder abt who this unknown to u is.. maybe i should start paying attentiont o my surroundings more.

kthxbye [yea i kinda failed.. so might as well]

[unknown to me: who are u.. i keep asking people, i get clues..but im no nearer to it than i was months ago... sigh.. this is why i dont play puzzle games. ]

2007-08-13T10:17:00.000+08:00

i can write anything i want coz no one visits! yea!

to the ndp : did u know that the lion fish was an absolute joke? and im not talkin abt the fact he fel down when he was blading that one time [accidents happen its cool its cool.] im talkin abt the whole idea of it... i mean what the heck? a lion fish, and the guy wearing it looked like a fruit sigh. cant blame him though, must have been a dare someone made him do...

while drunk...
and holding the things he loved as hostage

anyway work was ok... nothing special i guess..

i just realized everyone is changing and leaving! i should too. but how? simple! get rid of all the people who still think ure still taht guy from 5 years ago! i mean u cant change when u meet new people when all they hear is that u are that guy from 5 years ago from the...wait for it... the people u knew five years ago!

so heres the deal. either u start tofigure out how ive changed and stop lookin at me like im a 16 year old.. or u can just delete me from your life and if we ever meet by chance [ who knows what fate has in store] we can start over.

this isnt just for someone 'special' [ as i assume some people will be thinking] , this is for everyone..

... well except for zeph, the other 4 players and xiew. everyone else. DO OVER.

they're exempted coz i actually trust them! ^_^. although the players went to watch movies without me =(

[Player 0 Inside.. Player 1 Accepted.. Player 2 Accepted.. Player 3 Alone!]

2007-08-07T20:34:00.000+08:00

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you love me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I love you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you pulled me out of time
You hung me on a line
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you

Maybe I'm a man
Maybe I'm a lonely man who's in the middle of something
That he dosen't really understand
Maybe I'm a man, and maybe you're the only woman
Who could ever help me
Baby won't you help me to understand

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you're with me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I need you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you help me sing my song
You right me when I'm wrong
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you

because i cant explain it myself and i found that paul mccartney summed it up pretty nicely

oh btw happy bday meels!

kthxbye

[missin [joyn/h]er]

26072007

2007-07-26T19:52:00.000+08:00

j0

lol dont know how to explain... hm..

anyway.. 'God Knows...' by 'Aya Hirano'

for the Crusader in my life =D

goin back to camp..see u guys on sun.

ktxbye

[RenJ fights for alot of things. with purpose. True Paladin(Crusader Aura!)]

250707

2007-07-25T17:30:00.000+08:00

j0

so... its been a week.. i have in camp so i didnt have time to blog i apologize [to those who visit.. yea both of u. ]

anyway work is starting real soon so my free days are gonna be scarce.. not that it would matter anyway... i make plans but they die at the committee.

since my theories and my work was all wrong and put to waste i decided to fall back... after quititn gaming [for the one i love yay] i realize that it was a stupid thing to do [ coz love basically bad judgement] and ONCE AGAIN, i pick up my daggers, to answer the call of Azeroth, who is in pain.

Sivam.. future Subtlety Rogue. [shhh.. u hear that? no? good]

btw.. its better to make a clean break and explain urself.. than to disappear and hope it blows over... im stupid like that.

kthxbye

[to forget the memory of that person... seems impossible.. but its just very very precise data deletion. but im reluctant to do so... coz i still want to try ... oh the fool i am]

2007-07-18T10:01:00.000+08:00

j0

things i learnt when i went to MOS last week

1) u cant use a drink coupon for stuff like a Manhattan and a Grasshopper..poop... 16 and 14 respectively.. ow.

2) the music is loud and seems to pulsate through ur every cell.. making breathing heavy.. this in turn also acts as a failsafe so that u dont get a headache after u drink too much... [how much is too much? depends on ur resistance.]

3) the main difference between a perfect manhattan and a sweet manhattan is the ratio of whickey to vermouth... and at the time i got served one i forgot they did not add a cherry.. awww... then it was just a silly dirnk without the cherry zzz. someday i wish i get that one...

4) the admission system is cool and place looks very.. not what i expected..

5) the RnB place has got to be one of the scariest places ive ever seen.. ppl just dancing and making out anywhere they wanted...><

6) i want to live in the Retro Section

7) the grasshopper has got to be the best drink ever... u may get tempted to down in at one go though.. but its yummy.

8) as soon as u go home.. u cant seem to watch anime for like 3 hours.. coz the lack of hard hitting beats gives u a headache.

9) i am not good at drinking games..

and 10)

i am not good at picking up women.. or at drinking games...

that is all

kthxbye~~~

[have sex with many women... make love to one..]

2007-07-09T17:33:00.000+08:00

j0

yo guys

so anyway i think my schedule is gonna be better for the next fortnight so i guess its safe to blog... for now.

anyway lotsa things to say coz its been like quite a while but i think i'll just stick to the important ones...

first of all.. TRANSFORMERS!

ok lets see.. i knew the movie was coming out since last year.. was hyping about it during the time.. i mean it was Transformers! Optimus Prime and all that Jazz [pun not intended.]. so at first when the movie title was out i was super freaking excited.. but when the long trailer came out i was worried...

first of all the transformation: it was too long... and the movements were all too whirry and very complicated.. i mean... Prime took 10 seconds to transform... in the old times it was wat... robot...4secs, truck... that was cool.. and the old time sound was great. then they replaced it with gears whirring, and everyone was spinning limbs here and there.. but at least during the middle of the movie, when Ironhide transformed, they put in the classic sound... that was so cool to hear.

Plotwiset.. well techinically it was the same thing again..evil over good, Prime Saving Humanity, etc etc.. the fight scene was different coz usually in the cartoons there all they did was travel to the battle area [wherever it may be] in vehicle mode, then transform, then shoot each other with laser guns [first person to think OMG LASER GUNZ PEW PEW deserves a stab in the head]. so it was refreshing to see physical fighting and stuff. prime killing Bonecrusher was cool... only appearance of his energon sword. Jazz died horribly.. split like a wishbone ><><... wheres ultra magnus! Hot Rod! Scourge!!! zomg i wanted to see Ultra Magnus... and Optimus Prime... combine to form Omega Prime..that would have been the shits.

anyway i went to watch transformers a second time and i noticed some cool things about Barricade [the cop car]

1) on the side are the words that go along the lines of 'to punish and enslave'.. prolly a sinister variant of the standard 'to protect and serve' i guess the P in protect got changed to punish..and serve turned to slave...in turn to enslave...

2) on the police crest on his side... there is a Decepticon Symbol on it. cool!

so anyway... regarding my life... nothing much happened.. work and went out with dan and jermt o watch transformers a second time... i <3 Optimus Prime...

i swear i will blog more often.. just that nothing special happens... haha... then there is no point.

2007-07-04T00:33:00.000+08:00

sorry for the depressing poss the other night.. dont know... was thinking too much i guess.. imagine if she saw it.. zomg id die.. not that she cares haha.

anyway.. the past week was ok.. this new shift of ours is quite tiring... but can handle i guess.. just nothing but work and work but i guess i got my anime to keep me going. ^^. been at home when im not at camp... just watching some old series, gettin acquainted with new ones [Thanks Zeph!]

nothing special happened lately.. been very down as of late but i guess that my problem to solve on my own rite?

more to come ZOMG!

2007-07-03T03:50:00.000+08:00

first movie : bridget jones' diary 2: 7/12/2004...

last sighting... september less that 5... 2006...

so that means i was with her for 2 years..and i nv did anything..

now... did i do anyhting wrong or am i a very very stupid and fucked up guy?

[night air.. it messes me up]

someone needs to explain everything to me... Prime , where are you?

2007-07-03T03:40:00.001+08:00

z cant sleep.. 4am

u know i am so used to the feeling.. that somehome i cant to seem shake it off and it become a natural defence mechanism..i wonder how that is goin to affect mi... zz

10months since i saw here.. september marks a year..who would have thought when she said she wasnt good at saying goodbye..she really meant goodbye.

what? u were expectin something random and funny? go watch tv then.

ass.

210607

2007-06-21T10:27:00.000+08:00

HI!

ok so i just finished 4 days of work and listneing to brand new morning by mizuhashi mai. im addicted to the song sigh... its on my imeem if anyone cares. anyway i lef tmy ipod in camp so hopefully its not stolen when i go back >< on sunday.. coz ig et 4 days off since of the 4 days i did in a row.. worth it!. i brought my own stash of ribena so it was all good. doin shifts with cheow and ang was fun.. talk alot... more interactive ^^. time passed slow during the morning but during the evening it was instant.. we had loads of fun.. but we were serious in our work to yea *ahem* werk werk.!

so anyway my sim card was wrecked ... so i only got 20 numbers on it now... if anyone thinks i dont have his or her number.. just sms mi name and stuff.. i know i lost shawn's but thats all i remember.. o yea john too.. but i think he died not sure. XD.

edit* just after i wonder if john died he msns mi asking if im at home.. wat are the freaking odds of that. this is a perfect opportunity and reason to use this face... :O .. there i did it

slowly getitn addicted more and more to anime.. i dont know whats comin over me.. haruhi suzumiya is cool! and i can say aya hirano is my fave voice actress! shes done alot of work and shes only 19 !!!! <3 shes done Sumomo Mo Momo Mo [Sanae Nakajima! glasses, short hair and Iincho! MOE~~~~] She was Suzumiya haruhi... in lucky star shes konata izumi.. in kiddy grade she was lumiere.. and misa amane in death note.. <3 <3 and she was the artist behind the suzumiya OP. woot. hearts so yay for her.. =D

im prolly gonna go out.. maybe scout some new games to try out since i have time... lotro looks fun but im worried need us adress and credit card to play then im fucked ><... ge seems ok..but 80 dollars for emilia the sage.. no. who knows ..maybe i go get zelda and ff for my ds and com respectively.. and have fun..

write more letter.. have a great... watever timepsan... ^^

KTHXBYE

[maria ozawa...hot !]

160607

2007-06-16T13:00:00.000+08:00

j0

depressed and thinking too much... having an optimistic attitude has got to be the worse thing ever...

nothing much just thinking..write more on wed..

kthx

i didnt do it

ok so i did do it, but i didnt do it on purpose..

ok so i did it on purpose, but i do regret what i did..

ok so i dont regret what i did, it wont happen again...

and thus the cycle continues..

2007-06-13T13:53:00.000+08:00

sivam, you suck. there was no scene at the end of the credits of ocean's 13.

120607

2007-06-12T09:54:00.000+08:00

HI!

happy belated bday Xiang Rui! i forgot coz i was at work and you know work, i shut down ><.

random info: the phase 'not giving you mroe work' does not sound as good as 'giving you less work' coz ppl want to get stuff..and ppl love less work... but not giving you mroe work means u wont get more work... giving you less work means u still get work.. only less.. so... the point is, do u still want to get work?.

ok bookin in today aft quite a fruitful off i must say =D

othing happened udring this session of werk... just less writing done which was depressing coz i wanted to write more... maybe i lacked the drive? or something along that line... anyway bookin out was ok..surprised to see the train so crowded on suhc a late sunday night.. you'd think ppl have somehting better to do but they dont... hm..saw a buncha cuties on the train and my fren was telling mi to go approach em... i was like u kidding? and he said why not and i said im on a train... and he told mi that im wierd... hm. ran home form the train station...for training purposes... ran out of breath halwfway thru...not healthy.... i should have tighten my bag too..was jumping all over the place... i dont have good topspeed and i dont think i have good acceleration... im worried ><..

ok fist day of off was ok... i wanted to go out in the morning to watch ocean's 13....alone..coz the people i wanted to go with did not want to go [thanks people i wanted to go with!] but my mum said i had to stay at home so she could get groceries and dad bday stuff and someone needed to take care of the other two while she was away.. so... j0. anyway all i did was do some slacking... caught up to another anime series!

Sumomo Mo Mom Mo!

funny series... some hentai looking parts so keep out of reach of kids or perverted adults.. wats with the obsession of young marriages in anime anyway... i dont get it >< but its nice.. ok balance of action and comedy and theres a character names Sanae Nakajima... meganekko...Iincho... a little Moe element... short hair and super cute <3. although her clans uniform is quite uh... uncute.. and the fact the main guy isnt a martial artist and the main girl cant see that... hilarious.

then yao called mi and asked if i wanna do anything. lawz was in so i was ok anything... had lunch while finishing sumomomomomo. then he called mi ard 5 to say i gotta be at hereen at 6.30 so i was ... wat time, and how do i get there and he said ' o ya lol u dont go out much bwahahahahahaha' jerk.. so anyway mom came home i went out,

lets see.. outside...outside.. lets say it was big... crowded. not so scary but kinda wierd to see so many ppl.. there were alot of cute girls but since this wasnt a club, my fren didnt approach nobody.. we went to get tix for the 10.25 oceans 13 movie. mi lawz and yao...then since we had 3 hours to burn, we went to eat sushi, discuss abt stuff, went to the apple store, where lawz got his 4gig pod, spent some time debating what colour to get [get silver, the rest are all girl colours...] then i went to the comic book store to check out some stuff..

on a related note, there are a lot of transformers related merchandise being sold nowabays.. hype for the new movie? pls dont remove it aft the movie is done.. i like the stuff...

and anoyne wanna go watch transformers on the 30th? 28th i cant coz im in camp... i wanted to watch it on opening nite but sgt said it was a crap reason to switch schedule... and in the words od mr wan ' wtf u think u watch on opening nite got extra robot meh?' its not abt the extra, its abt the homage! and to think coz of yao and lawz i miss the last hidden scene of Ocean;s thirteen fuck! they dindt wait for the credits...i feel cheated of my money..didnt get ot see the whole movie...

speaking of which..onto the main arc ofthis post

MOVIE: Ocean's 13!

lets see.. like the pattern i keep seeing now.. in trilogies that is, the first one lure ppl..the seconds tests them, and the third, rewards the faithful... Oceans 11 was a great movie... with the introduction to the characters to the heist, to the banter between best friends Ocean [Clooney] and Rusty [Pitt]. their dialogue was quite funny in 11.. they'd speak to each other in incomplete sentences and the other guy would just agree or disagree, or theyd not speak and the other guy will have a discusson to his own, while thinking of the first guys opinions... the heist and technology, recon scouting and tactics they use were amazing and interesting ... tkaen from wikipedia's oceans 11 age...

In the beginning of the movie, when they begin to work on the plan for the casino heist, Rusty (Pitt) says to Danny (Clooney),

"Off the top of my head, I'd say you're looking at a Boesky, a Jim Brown, a Miss Daisy, two Jethros and a Leon Spinks, not to mention the biggest Ella Fitzgerald ever!"

it introduced me to certain cons which they described...

oceans twelve had other cons like swinging priest", "crazy larry", "soft shoulder", "baker's dozen", "lookie-loo with a bundle of joy" and "hell in a handbasket'. to me it didnt hit mi as much as 11 did but it had catherine zeta-jones... was it bad? heh.

now thirteen.. its said that the director wanted to end it with 13.. with a bang.. and he friggin succeeded. it was great movie! new cons introduced were [cant really really remmber... but..] 'The Gilroy' and 'The Brody'. the brody i understand lol gilroy not as much though sigh.. the plot was different on a level.. it was all abt ruining the guy but it wasnt for their gain.. just for his loss.. the multiple layers of cons was nice, i was laughing during ocean and rusty conversations especially the

Rusty: you know its like..
Ocean: yeap
Rusty: But then its also like
Ocean: yeap
Rusty: yeap.

the fluidity was nice lol... the wives didnt make an appearance which was ok i guess.. they were only talkin abt them which sufficed ^^. the ending was nice.. i liked how they helped the reviewer get some money aft whatever they did do him during the stay at the hotel.

all in all a great movie, and tho those that havent watched any of the oceans heist, you should... start with the begining then go watch 13 aft 11 and 12 are done...

waht cna i say.. i love the working of a proper thief =)

so ends my post.. im gonna watch some monty python then get ready to book in... if anyone needs me.... nah they dont

KTHXBYE

[Ocean: saul makes 10, 10 oughta do it dont you think?
Rusty: ....*tv
Ocean: you think we need one more?
Rusty: ...*tv
Ocean: you think we need one more.
Rusty: ... *tv
Ocean: alright we'll get one more
Rusty: ... *tv

classic]

gotta love japan

2007-06-10T23:43:00.001+08:00

this is for you. sivam.

2007-06-08T12:17:00.000+08:00

hi

just finished the Series suzuka... right b4 im about to book in too.. pretty good for my taste... parts mushy, parts sad... parts funny.. yayness ^^

just look it up in veoh. =D

by the way... i jsut wanna say this coz i came across it on the net.. u know those inspirational placards u get with some qualities and then tehy write a short phrase and post it with a picture...?

like Sincerity : blablabla

heres one i just saw which was good..

Fantasy Football:
It's Like Dungeons and Dragons for guys who used to beat up the kids who played Dungeons and Dragons.

its not really exact..but u get what i mean?... heh change fantasy football to championship manager and dnd to watever mmo i guess..

oh and :

Gaming:
face it, nothing you do in real life will ever be THIS cool.

kthxbye

[ah now for another series to search..recommend mi somethin]

2007-06-07T17:23:00.000+08:00

hi [trying to concentrate on writing]

well lets see.. these 4 days...nothing mmuch happened... slacked in camp..... saw a couple of pretty gals so that was good.. not in my age grp though.. i think... but one had a very nice voice... pens ran out of ink so i couldnt write much more.. then we just did watever and came home..

wanted to go watch ocean's 13 today but didnt have anyone to go with... its wied to go to th movies alone when it comes out... so i stayed home and watched oceans 11 and 12... not a total loss. usual person i asked said no lo... not surprising ^^..

anime is gettin more and more complicated to watch.. now that some people dont like the anitube guy i think, they rename the epis and paste it under stupid names like qasdvwe and eywehj. so i guess its harder to find it...oh well. there was this webby darren gave mi telling mi abt the dangers of dling, its on http://h4kkai.blogspot.com. just scroll down and find it... good that lucky star aint on it... so yay me...

so lets see.. i comleted tenjou tenge, the melancholy of haruhi suzumiya... kekkaishi , DN, Naruto, Kaze No Stigma, Seto no Hanayome are until their latest... trying to compelte Suzuka now.. its on veoh and i was having fun until epi10.. now i need to actually wait for the dl to finish... and i got 16epis to go! o well.. i completed Kamisama Kazoku too.. its a nice series i guess... check it out on veoh.. its 13epis..and thats perfect...cant be done in like...5hours ish. aft army... nothing like animu and lazing aroud.. i could use more anime to see i guess.. slowly pick up jap..although conversing in jap with what i learn in anime is gonna be pretty wierd...

hm something different happened this week. i met pris at pasir ris int at ard...11plus... wats diff is that she lives in balestier.... it was so late at nite... and ive never met her b4... i only met her online in GMS 3years ago...this was the first RL encounter .. shes kawaii... haha.

o welll time for mi to complete suzuka... they say that lif eisnt a manga, coz things dont go your way... but then again... Life imitates art more often that art imitates life...

kthxbye!

[treat any experience u have as data... that way emotional anomalies are not in play...]

04062007

2007-06-04T10:48:00.000+08:00

hi!

woah after a depressin post and a shift of work done, i guess im done.. j0. so... i guess the post didnt make much sense..and due to the laws of human nature...if u find something u dont understand..u can either..find out, or not care... and i like to take the easy way out...and not care... you should too

so work was ok i guess.. apparently when u r doin nothing, its harder to stay awake ...but im manaign 12 hours str8 ... coz im good at useless things like that. anyway... all i do is doodle and create charas for that game im working on.. its a dream only lah... i dont have the ability ot make my own mmorpg anyway... this is just time wasting stuff..

came back on sat nite.. fell asleep aft watching lucky star [Miyuki <3]><... but yea just slackin off i guess.

i watched pirates on sunday nite! i took the 1800 e green bus and met jeremy at pasir ris..then we met dan at tamp aft me +jerm got the tix.. had dinner and bk... i wanted to buy a kids meal for that transformers toy..but it didnt really transform as i noticed.. so i ended up buying a normal meal...

ok lets see...

the only reason that pirates are famous now is coz of trends! pirates are the new ninja, and since ninja is like bubbletea, pirates are like paparoti...only not dead yet... thats why there are so many pirate games online recently.... and thats why one piece> naruto i guess... although naruto shippuden roxors.

PIRATES of the Caribbean: At W0rlds 3nd!

ok overall..the movie was a 9.. first off.. i pretty surprised that welcme to singapore thing was quite early in the movie... im also wondering what the hell is wrong with ppl.. is that sentence such a big deal to us? and another thing.... that whole place was filled with chinese people.. which cant be helped really considerin everyone thinks we're a fully fledge farmer country heh.

how all the characters were related to each other was explained... calypso was kinda weak actually.. all she did was grow big, then turn into a maelstrom...thats it.. will turners chara was a surprise... although when he died in the movie i kinda instantly knew wat was gonna happen...regarding jack and stuff.. it was so predictable.. the fight scenes was good.. theship was amazing! geoffrey rush was a great madman.. davy jones;'s not so bad ^^. they killed off the kraken, which was a disappointment.. nothing says badass like a big thing from the deep right?

the pirate lords was cool tho.. but..i was surprised to see a french pirate..let alone a frech pirate lord.. who would have thought the french had it in them? [haha no offence, u guys gave my audrey tatou, i forgive u =D]. the pirate code is cool

jhonny depp as usual was a great actor.. his father in the movie, ccaptaine teague, keeper of the code was played by the Rolling Stones' Keith Richards, who oddly enough, was Depp's inspiration for jack sparrow, and during the scene when he was strumming his guitar.. i was smiling, coz thats the guitarist of one of the great bands, man [for X sake, they gave us jumping jack flash!.]

the plot was ok i guess.. davy jone's locker was something i didnt expect... and its basically one big love story after another... davy and calypso... and stuff... and jack sparrow has got to be onehell of a genius... and evil genius doin this for his own means... but a genius nonetheless!. so damn cool.. he only said his savvy line once, and that was at the end of the movie. lol...

movies that i wanna watch soon... good sheperd aint coming to sg so thats sad... was thiking of cathinc ocean's thirteen, fantastic 4... transformers on the 28th... thats it i guess

ok nothing els ei can think of right now.. and i needa iron my uniform b4 i book in... i will blog when i come back...

int he words of akira sama

BYE-NEEE~~~

[N1nj4? This.. is... P1R4T3S!!!!!!!]

2007-05-27T18:26:00.000+08:00

j0

ok i am going to give two example..one to u guys may be geeky, but if u see my point, then its ok... the other is normal.....

example one... something easy like holding the Wii-remote [Wii-mote for short] , both remotes with both hands, and to press buttons and swing it around, might be easy to people like mi, but its way difficult for others... he cant even use the remote..he needs to hold one and use the other hand to move the d-pad and press the button, so that means, he cant play my wii...

and at the dinner yest...u can see him strugglin to even help people put stuff... his fingers... but u can see he tries....

example two...moving from one place to another is hard... stairs...too steep ramps, carpet floors... without the vehicle, he crawls... its.... sigh ... its hard

and yet in the future..he's mine.. question is, will be able to handle myself? let alone both of us?

god dammit im tearin up when i write this, what the fuck is wrong with me... being human..right?

this is why my frens do not mix with my family... and the main reason of singlehood... not the cause of my singlehood...its a decision i made myself...

[Brotherhood...]

2007-05-19T19:04:00.000+08:00

HI

good birthday i guess... things that happened in no particular order..

17th

0030: woke up coz it was hot and i had a dream involving me, a maze, and no map....

got a happy bday msg at 0005.... thought it was frmo my parents, turned out to be someone else ^^ thnks XD. went back to sleep... thought i was dreamign f 4hrs..turns out to be 5 mins...pissed, i wnet back to sleep... then i quickly opened my eyes... and it turned out to be 0545... i was like...woah.. passage of time= narly...

parents...some family members msged me.. went to eat breakfast.. only like 2 ppl form my platoon knew it was my bday.. which was 2 more than i expected.... z.. some msgs came ard 7+... xtra was closest to be exact bday timing... at 0723hrs... [exact t.o.b : 0747.. i was qutie a fat ass baby and my dad called mi the jumbo jet.. like the 747... cute..but now its just wierd]... personally i dont feel any different.. just a normal number... not even a prime one... odd numbers are good though...

some came ard 3+... it was nice... some people actually forgot until friday which was sad... but the blog wishes from meels was nice =D. then i found the cards she gave mi fro my 16th and stuff.. ah memories... turned on some music and just listened to my hearts content.... dled lucky star 4,5,6 .... 4 is stuck at 99%..rest is full.. but either way.. LUCKY STAR MARATHON!

had a nights out for the whole gang since it was bday.... i cant believe it.. after months of convincing them my bday was may 23rd and / or december.. wasted!!! oh well cant be helped right?

and aft spending a saturday night out with my family coz 'they wnna do something special' they claim that they told mi months ago that i was supposed to meet my whole extended dads side of the family for some bloody dinner so that they cna wish mi happy birthday and burn an off when i could be watching pirates or gaming. bad news is that i dont even feel like seeing people during my normal days, good news is that i dont have to meet the mom side. and considering the fact i havent gone out since spider 3... good show by the way. i gotta burn more days off ot see family pfft..

went back to camp for like 2 days...monday and tuesday..nothing funky happen...feel slower thats all.. stronger but slower....sigh im becomin very.... wierd...i miss the speed...

i bought my nintendo Wii on tuesday night with lawz accompanying me ^^.. i got legend of zelda twilgiht princess to go with it too [....well why else would you want ot buy a wii? hail the hero of hyrule....]

thursday was spent trying out the game Granado Espada....review

its good in the fact u can create alot of charas..and have a 3 man team.. like final fantasy... each has its own specific roles like ff9 so u cant give stuff to everyone else...balance in the way that it covers all roles...except the assassin.. apparently the scout class cna dual wield daggers and be assassin BUT they are more suited to be healers so...boohoo o well... the gameplay is unique..graphics are good... go ahead and try it...deatails at playge.sg

as for zelda.. considering i didnt really play OoT or MM...or WW... most of my zelda experience was on 2d gameboy [links awakening: classic], i like this one...controlling is a breeze...although aiming arrows and doin techniques is a bitch! my hand keeps moving around, thus decreasing my accuracy for shooting arrows ^^.

and now im watching monty python sketches...will blog more when i get out...18weeks of bliss..=D

[How to Defend yourself against a man armed witha banana.

First, you make him drop the banana
Then, you eat the banana, thus disarming him.
Congratulations, you have now rendered the man helpless.

classic]

170507

2007-05-17T19:05:00.000+08:00

Hi!

here i am in a lan shop bloggin and tryin yo listen to lucky star.. apparently i cant connect my headphones to anything so.... i ghuess i cant listen wihtout botherin other people so i wont XD

so this whole week was all combat... learnt some new skills , refreshed the old ones.. basically unarmed stuff.. there was some sparring also... but that was with a weapon.. not a decent weapon... it was with some huge crappy thing that sucked... but it was fun..seeing combat tatcis emplyed by different people.. like tall over short, dodgin over brute strength...and me.. instead of dealing one huge hit when an ooponent dropps his guard, i give many little hits...coz assassins attack fast.. haha.

all in all it was good..still got friday to go then i can book out..dl some anime..lucky star 6 is out so...i hope there are some seeds when i get back... and needa watch my others...

other than that nothing much i wanna blog about.. maybe when i get home.. lotsa movies openin soon... transformers in 2 months..

oh and on an unrealted note. i turned 21 today... well at 7:47 am on 17th may anyway... to those that wished me.. thanks... to those that didnt.. if u forgot its ok..if u didnt care..thanks i now know where i stand...

kthxbye

[hm the person i least i expected to know switched places with the person i most expected to know.. oh well.]

130507

2007-05-13T10:05:00.000+08:00

HI!

was in cam whole of sat to help so only came back ard 9+..i did come homeon friday nite but reported backt o camp.... SPARTANS are always READY! o well so the sat was burnt..when u think abt it, u did something good so its ok [omg a mature thought...:O]

camp was ok... im free until september thank i met the two reqs to set myself free.. woo i love my new timing... not even top 50% though...sian... guess i need to train more... apparently its coz of my genes.... ah pui says i from kenya so i can run... zzz..

currently listening to: Pretty Vegas [ on my imeem thing.]

since i found a ince webby and video sharing webby to see anime ive been returning to it... currently addicted to

Deathnote: woot Kira!
Naruto Shippuden: Itachi yay and Temari <3
The Melancholy of Hruhi Suzumiya: Mikuru Asahina... yea XD
Lucky Star: zomg Tsukasa! and Miyuki!
haven seen the others yet.. o well...

hopefully im gettin a wii when its comes out... keeping fingers crossed... i got my ocarina... but i really really REALLY could use a damn belt... mines all... out of charges so to speak....

i got the last week of May.. so i cnaw atch pirates pearl and pirates chest b4 i go watch At World's End. woot Keira Knightley!. i <3 u.. shes a 85... zomg.... rupert friend is a lucky guy.. lol

nothing major happened... apparently ppl think im well coz i live where i live.. this is why people are not suppsed to come o my house.. although this puts a decent facade... score!

i accidently overwrote my final fantasy 3 game.. so i now have to start from scratch... pls dont laugh at me? ok?.....

i'll blog agn when i return on the 18th or 19th.. depends... i amy be busy while my parent go celebrate their aniversary...

on an unrelated note... lets see hwo many ppl remember..

[beware the Siren. Sure, these women will talk so sweetly, but all they want to do is kill you. one way or another..]

03052007

2007-05-03T16:55:00.000+08:00

HI

was stuck in camp fro a whole week which was a change form the 2 days on and off for the last month..sadly for the month of may im back in camp and i have so much stuff to do... middle of the month the worse sigh...not free! but the fact i went down to bloggin when i came back shows dedication..and the fact i have no life..

hm..overall? week was good i guess.. met the old guys again lol played table soccer yea! lost one match... lost 3 to farhan over one month...played against derek.... won 1 lost 1 sigh...but overall score he owns. which is wrong. i dont know why but eveytime i play foosball i get the song pinball wizard by the who playing in my head...

anyway i was listening to the song dont fear the reaper and i was thinking about a phrase i heard before on the net that goes 'needs more cowbell' i wiki-ed it

intermission

yes i wiki-ed it.. wiki is thenew google which was the new yahoo which was the new search which was the new research. woo for technology

end

so apparently its a reference to a saturday night live skit that involved the blue oyster cults song 'dont fear the reaper' and the guy wanted more cowbell in the music...good news is that now i know where the phrase came from..bad news is that i can hear the cowbell in the actual song which was disturbing coz i didnt last time...

anyway i scratched my wii idea ad may be goin for a laptop in the future..^^..

scissor sisters is a cool band. hits liek take your mama, i dont feel like dancing...
[What Shall It Profit A Man If He Gains The Whole World But Loses His Soul?

30042007 Janice's Birthday.

2007-04-30T00:00:00.000+08:00

HI!

ure wondering how im in camp but this is here...well keep wondering! and here!

today marks an important day!. happy bday to somone very special! some of u know her as Ruriko.. some as chidori-... some as sodapopp. but most likely you all know her as Janice~. You're 19! from that little girl at 14 to a mature and stunning woman at 19 :) [omg why am i typing this]... which is wierd coz the last time i saw u was when u were 16 ><... three years is long! but ive known u since i was 16 so that 5 years thus making u one of the longest girls ive known.. =D ok so jan is that top link on my blog links... she used to be a gamer.. shes the name of the white mage, whenever i make an ff game... she the White Mage to my Assassin. Shes the shiny beacon of hope for humanity, a high angel , vision of loveliness and thus all sense of virtue, whereas i am... an assassin. [to those who read the paragraph above, no i am not losing my grip on reality.] ok going back on track. real life, shes such a sweetie. although she does get pissed wheneever she cant used the com lol. she looks cute with short hair and glasses which is rare ><. not that im saying she doesnt look cute otherwise. she looks great now =) i already gave u the advice u could use for ur bday, so dont worry. instead i posted a song for u. From Guns and Roses, this is one of their Best Songs. Sweet Child Of Mine... [listen all the way..]

so anyway i'll get this posted right at midnight tonight so u can see it 1st thing lol.. so once again happy bday, and have a great day..1st of may is a holiday rite? have a great 2 days =D

KTHXBYE
[now and then when i see her face, it takes me away to the special place...]

28042007

2007-04-28T13:38:00.000+08:00

HI!

sorry fr the late post.... was busy these few days..so lets get down to business

the 2 books ive been waiting for since april have finally arrived.. God's Debris: A Thought Experiment and its counterpart, The Religion War.. seems interesting so far...wont spoil it for u guys, plus u guys prolly wont read it anyway..not ur cup of tea..written by scott adams...name sound familiar...he wrote dilbert ^^.

the previous 2 days were eventful... think i got closer to an old friend of mine, which was kinda nice... but we'll see. i may have indirectly do something bad... though some great words were exchanged... i was also talkin to my bunk mate abt stuff..kinda saw a different level of thinking from the old days....please and scared at the same time.

came back on late friday... tooo exahsuted to do anything..went online talked to some people, nothing special... reported all my activities to all the respective people! [Steph, Therapist 3, and most recently a freind from aussie. shes cute but shes spoken for!] went to jons place on sat night, which happens to be now hey yo!. ordered pizza, and talked and did some gaming..then went home with russ and dan... apparently bus was twice as fast than usual, according to dan's calculations. o well

i know im going to regret the pizza thing tmr...too many slices, too much chili, too much ribena... huhn.... ouch..

ok anyway im headed to camp tmr...i guess i wont be here till friday..will blog then.. u guys dont die!! whee

total random stuff... did u know there is a 13th astrological sign? Ophiuchus formerly known as Serpentarius, but its close to sagittarius so they changed it..apparently its the serpent carrier..i starts from nov 30 to dec 17 means it eats half of scorpio, but its not recognize..hence scorpio ets a full month... its between sagitarius andscorpio...so the more u know.. i love astrology..dun know amny people born under this star anyway...but this star..has no ruling planets..n element.... no nothing.. its a mystery

kthxbye

Scissor Sisters baby!

25042007

2007-04-25T13:45:00.000+08:00

HI

well the reason for this short post is that its the only thing in my head right now. and i want to test that timer feature...it better work!

anyway..

you know you are a geek when, its in the afternoon, your little sis is watching kid central mickey mouse and friends, and u come out of your room, see the tv, and u ask her 'where is Sora?'

true story..happened like 30minutes ago..

KTHXBYE

Roses are #FF0000
Violets are #0000FF
All My Base
R Belong 2 j00

24042007

2007-04-24T11:18:00.000+08:00

HI!

to Karma: u suck.

so anyway im back...the DS is fun i guess.. as always , im just grinding at low level areas for items, job levels and coz i am a nut who has way too much time on his hands... work was funzor.. and im going back tmr...which is...ok i guess i dont mind work, the time im working and when im out, im playing ff... its like a dream...whee.. i have an urge to get potato chips to bring to camp so when im on break i can eat chips and play ds..but i think i will get fat ag.. zzz

anyway i was thinking abt weight fluctuations since sec sch and this has been a so far accurate weight gaing loss chart..ahem..

16: b4 o levels..: 39kg [ yea i was light...but i couldnt run or jump. seriously dunnoe wth was wrong with me]
after o levels, that 6 months break, i spent my time slacking, reading, playing games and learning more abt certain area of interests [quantum theory, drake equation].. : was 50
during the poly years of gmaing and slacking and eating and slacking and eating and sleeping...66 ish..i think..close to 70 i dont know how..
BMT: 65++
out of bmt aka enter mp: 55
out of mp enter new camp: 59
2 months into new camp: 57 woot!

man im fat... im 57 zz i needa do more running, and abs thingies! argh... i guess i couldtake up blading again too.. i need somehting that will increase agi mostly.. i need more speed... and if i jump more, my ippt probs are solved...then i get shiny yellow badge!!!! not shiny white.. z

lets see ure prolly wondering why im at home now when i should make use of my time! and some of u will say hah ahe got no life.. got ds got comp he not oging out coz hes a luuzerr~~..
that may be true but taht is not the real reason!

i so had a chance to go out. i made plans and stuff and it was a great plan [i was happy with glee. and since i dont smile much, my cheeks hurt alot..z

anyway the planw as set and i was happy and when i come home my om says i cant go out coz i need ot take care of my sis while she and my bro go out for his stuff.. i was impaled! dmg+ stunned..dunnoe wat to say..then when she replied saying she could amke it for awhile, i had to tell her i cant coz im taking care of my sis..then she never reply aww sad sivam...to which i went to play my ds while wathcing csi.

and this morning, around 11 my mom tells mi that its raining and shes not going out so i can go ressurect my plans again... which is silly coz she wont have time, she needed to be bakc early so her ei am stuck at home, palying my ds, bloggin when i could be going out!!! argh! /dies

ranting..prolly write more later... or the next day

KTHXBYE
[imsosorry..can we reschedule? please? =D]

200407

2007-04-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

HI!

it swallowed my huge post just now so im just summarizing now... cool? cool

had to stay in camp for extra days fro some event...fun, missed the com but oh well.. was bz smsin and reading coz thats what i only had... but with my newly aqquired DS lite, i take gmaing to the handheld stage.. woot final fantasy 3. good grpahics, nice classes, and havin a blast playing...thieves are fun

camp was fun.. a few hiccups here and there, i kinda melted at some point, [showing a sign of weakness is bad, i need to recup!] o well its over.. i had absolutely no table soccer this week and im slightly pissed about that. hm.

watched lucky star when i came back... the first 2 eps... miyuki! <3 <3 heh. glasses are cute... spent all my allowance already so im slightly sad since im broke for the next 3 weeks, but i dont need anyhting else really..maybe just top up my ez link..thats it.

uh 21 is comin really soon. i will reach ascendance and then its a whole new game i guess.. i'll explain more in my next post which theoritically should occur on tuesday...or monday if im not that sleepy. and i was gettin my wish lis tup for my bday [coz there're things i would love to have, but dont necessarily need : heh human nature, wat are u gonna do? zzzzz]

once again i blew off meeting someone.... sorry about it.. its complicated zz... when i fix my own problems, then we cna work on the others...personal problems first, coz if i leave those there, it may affect the others.. its not tha ti dont want to, its more like i cant

sigh, i am so socially inept now...what on earth happened to me since sec sch.... i feel cynical...blue, depressed, so many disorders... poly was rough i know but what else happened..i need to find out more..

well thats the summary....sorry it couldnt be any more detailed... if i can iwill wirte tmr but igot the alst ironing and folding and what not to do...

MP: Not Multi-Purpose.

KTHXBYE!

Johnny was a chemist's son
But Johnny is no more
What Johnny thought was H20
Was H2SO4 ....

2007-04-15T18:43:00.000+08:00

i just have to do this..

lucky star is out. =D

the torrent is here.

http://a.scarywater.net/afk/%5Ba.f.k.%5D%20Lucky%20Star%20-%2001.avi.torrent

copy and paste into your browser. i'm too lazy to enable clickables.

150407

2007-04-15T10:46:00.000+08:00

HI.

btw the way..anyone kow wat i need to use to paste pics on my blog...msn or sms or watever me.

dammit the Lucky Star OP is getitn into my brain...thnks xiew z. when the subs come out, tell me haha.

i watched Shooter last night. funny convo involving me, dan [xtra] and eugene [azurechicken]

summary:

eug: im back
me: omg hi
dan: hi
me: *nudge
eug:*nudge
dan: nudge

eug: bored.
me: yup
dan: *gone to do propaganda
eug: nothing to do
me: yea my coms down sorta..no wow or ft

INTERMISSION: to those of my fellow wow gamers...my wow is down adn my acc is down so gimme time to get it back..should be back in may..i expect gifts!

back to normal [well..relatively normal.

eug: wanna go for a movie
me: its 2240 now
me check newspaper
me:shooter at 2355, sunshine at 2330 smking aces 2315
eug: shooter sounds good
me: dan did u hear that...
dan *tumbleweed...
me: hm ok shooter i go call him and tell him..we need to shower..again
eug: o yea...shower..i woke up at 5pm so i frogot abt that haha
me call dan
me: shooter!
dan: watch liao
me: WTF?

INTERMISSION 2! [ok i know swearing is bad... i need to stop swearing.. i am 21. need to be more refined... im going back to reading too.. so help me be more class.. remember.. i dont have pure str build like more men.. so im goin for the 4dex 4 int 2 str 2 charm build. {i point for every month i live.. 1 year 1 lvl up.}

dan: nvm watch agn..never hear mosto fthe dialogue in the first one anyway. wat time ?
me: soon
dan: so late?
me: so late..that its early!
dan: ...
me: just go get ready
dan: i live in tamp now..gimme 5 mins
me: o ya. z

so i go wash up, and leave my house at 2300..the last msg on my msn was:
eug: 2325 last train...

so i ran from my place to the mrt station..reach there in 15mins... i sitll dont know how the hell i did it..but i did catch the train..eug didnt..so i emt dan while eug came in cab [yea army boys we r! rich rich rich.!]

ok point of post!!!!

movie was ok i guess.. like dan siad he couldnt get past the dialogue and i understand why... they were like muttering half the time..maybe my hearings shot im not sure. but the other elemtns were good.. gun lectures... betrayal..murder! btu they called assassination...ASSASSINATION wahey. but it was entertainin. the ending was not wat i expected so i approve of that... theres one scene where he says 'u dont understand, they killed my dog' reminded mi of the 'she kicked my dog' thing..dont know why.. Rhona Mitra was there.. total hottie..she seems to get half naked in her movies now.. keep going keep goin!

then we talked abt stuff then we went home..and i went to sleep. it was a good night.. nice movie...

im currently addicted to Dire Strait's Walk of Life. if u have time, go have a listen, its quite good. that and stairway to heaven..i remember when my fave song was baba o reily by the who...times change..o hey last time, i coldnt live without the beatles hit yellow submarine..i guess things change...whether i like it or not hm? pity..

other than that i promise to not do anything to affect mysel ftill im 21...no goin clubibn or flirting or watever.. ^^. bachelor 4 lifezor XD

kthxbye!

[off to camp.... do the walk of life..]

140407

2007-04-14T12:57:00.000+08:00

HI!

nothing much happened this time..had to put in a couple of extra hours..there was extra stuff to do..+ thing is im gettin stronger i think...but i do feel like im gettin slower...not sure.. i need to run more... speed is good. speed is GOD!.

speaking of god, my books are comin this week.. hopefully i get it on my day off and i can start readin... God's Debris and The Religion War. not much hype but i like the author.

tonite is movie night! prolly gonna turn on Star Wars.. unless i can get out of the house and watch smokin aces... i have urge for some mexican food.. haven had any in a long while... like a burrito or something... or maybe i could go to that place i used to go a long time ago..and get a chilli dog! anyone wanna come with..

i may be gettin a nintendo wii.. but im not sure... prolly be a personal bday present.. geekdom ! my bday and i spend it playing Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess... but my bday falls on a thursday...aww wi'll be in camp... i hope i can run away...i think my bunkmates may screw with me.. i dont want that.. i wanna go home and play..play play play... ah well

i left my phone in camp..thankfully it was there when i went back...phone and wallet! can u believe it! i was a dumb [DURRRRR -intell] i know that this post sounds lame but that coz im spending my time reading the whole of megatokyo...998comics in one day...trying!

april has reached the mid mark.. i kinda spent my pay already....aside form the part im saving...but soon.. the Wii will be mine. other than that im just happy doin what i do.. my optimus prime figurine and model is fine.. so far in truck mode..too lazy o form him up.

OH BTW: another movie to catch... Perfect Stranger..stars bruce willis..and halle berry if im not mistaken..

my last words today are: Junpei: N1NJ4 For Hire!

[Sometimes its nice to be with someone, sitting down peacefully, while the world goes to hell in the background.
wanna join? ive got coffee..?]

2007-04-10T20:46:00.000+08:00

ok uh this song is for the april birthday kiddos! since my music is stretching t the likes of pink floyd and lz, this is for u guys and gals :). this is Led Zeppelin's 'Stairway to Heaven.' its long i know, i apologize but its good.. nice work tho.. tell mi if u like it =D
HI!

ok some stuff to mention but first i need to put up a list..

Movies i need to watch this year...as far as i know..so far..

in no particular order of course..cept the way they come out...of course... mmm horse.

Zodiac: Seems cool and im kinda branching out from rom coms and stuff

The Good Sheperd: its abt the formation of the CIA so im interested...

Pirates of the Carribbean: well since pirates are the new Ninja, i must watch it. and the trailers look cool.. and of course..keira knightley... mmmm

Transformers: Optimus Prime. Enough Said.

Spiderman 3: Well im not really a marvel fan. i prefer dc.. but hey. Comic Hero. im sucked in. ^^. and Kirsten Dunst! <3.>

ok so this session of work and break wasnt too bad.. sunday was dull. nothing much really happened. theres a little action on monday, but nothing that cnat be ignored ^^.

reached home monday night, then realized it was yu qians bday so i told myself ot msg her at 12.. turns out i totally forgot until 5past 12 haha. then i wished her while jon and dan and me were playing D2. then i was thnking of watching a movie on tues afternoon and then realized everyone is busy so i thought id go alone, since i haven done that in awhile.. so i did.

i woke up ard 8..played abit of d2, did some writing..net was down sadly..then i went out.. went to buy my new issue of discover and Rolling Stone. and Pre-ordered HP7. then went over to tm and booked a ticket for the 11.40 movie

watched 23 at ard 11.40am. pretty spooky when u think abt it. i love a good conspiracy. ppl always say i think too much [ it's true. as ayone form poly or sec sch. oot a good thing tho.. coz apparently when i do it, it hurts people or something. watever.] some phrases did hit mi like ' u see it everywhere coz u have it in your mind, and then u look for it.' its not really coincidence if u are looking fr a link is it? it's kinda far fetched at some point. but all in all a good movie. Jim Carrey, one of my fave male actors since young, has really transformed himself. he used ot dosome very silly movies like ace ventura, mask, dumb and dumber, but now, he's settling down, takin serious and scary roles, and he's pulling it.

see the trouble with ppl liek carrey is that they expect somehting out of him. like when they go to a carrey movie, they're expecting 'alright carrey boy, make mi laugh!' and when they see this they suddenly think 'crap hes being serious! not ventura! this movie sux. he's supposed to be funny'. perosnally i think its cause ppl tend to judge people, and expect them not to change and when they do, they still label him as what he was before, not allowing him to change.

heh... i wonder if that happened to me. ppl still expect mi to do stupidstunts and treat mi like some kid. take another look will you please? =D.

and im about toturn on scarface and maybe jesus christ superstar. anyhting just sms me ^^

goin backto work tmr...

btw to celebrate the arrival of the transformers movie i got myself and optimus prime transformer.. pretty cool. the original truck to robot with his own matrix of leadership. ^^

KTHXBYE!

[Renj; if u need anything...msg me.]

6/4/07

2007-04-06T00:21:00.000+08:00

User: Blitz

Purpose: Ressurection of Blog

Links: Modified

Comics: Still Reading

People: Old ones left, New ones Must Enter..soon

Women: Please...me?

New TAG: Check

New Post: IN Process

Start!

*whir..clickclickCLICK

I Live.

Hi!

ok dont listen to xiew, its not dead.. it was in a coma for 2 months to make way for ns and stuff.. been quite busy.. on a scale of 1 to 10.. it was around 13.. yea that high.. but my posts are gone..hm nvm i still got em in archive.!

got posted somewhere nice. got a good schedule that allows mi to stay at home and rest at some points so i guess thats ok.. finally got my silver for ippt... although silver is the new pass and gold is the new silver so i gotta train all over agn..2 more chin up..20more cm for jumping..and of course..40secs to shave off my running..

considering the fact my running keeps improving every time. i think im making good progress. heh.

the people is my bunk are ok...platoon are good..and the company ROCKS! i met new people from my floor.. good taste in music..during our soccer competition, i was busy humminh to under pressure by queen, sweet child of mine by GnR and... forgot..but one more good song...i think it was paradise city by GnR.

the other platoon is full of world of warcraft palyers and mroe iportantly to me now...Table Soccer Enthusiasts! For some reason im into the game now...and i think im ok at it..although the guys i play with just own mi with such ease...its nice to learn new tachs though...esp dribbling... o well. one of these days i'll beat them...and then there's the SGs. they are..fast...zzz

hm aside form army, nothing has been happening..trying todivinde my time between World of Warcraft, Diablo 2: Lord of Destruction and Going Out i guess..watched a couple of movies .... TMNT, Messengers...and... 300!

i'll Start with 300. it was a great movie. good action.. dialogue was kinda wierd but i didnt expect much from it... the fight scenes were incredible. esp the earlier ones which leonidas goes into matrix time, and slows down and we see some spectacular kills.. good idea dto do that..

there were some gaming elements involved... like when the sorcerers throw bombs, and one guy rushes in,, kills a sorcerer, who drops his bomb, which rolls into the big pile of unlit bombs...u cna guess wat happens... chain reaction. everything blows up, sorcerers die. it reminded mi to the legend of zelda sequence in which in order to defeat the moblin king, u need to throw a bomb back at him then throw one at his pile of bombss, destroying his keep. ah memories... '

Messengers was horror so i didnt like it. but kirsten stewart was cute. it had creepy gollum dudes in it, but thats the new look for evil spirits.. apparently gray is the new flesh this season. makes black look like last seasons' white if u know what i mean [ i sure as hell dont]. the ending was pretty fucked up and the last sentence said was wierd...i spent most of my time with my ees closed.. i dont really do well in horror.. wats the point in paiyng 8 bucks to get a heart attack.

TMNT: ok for cgi it was a good movie. the April o neil was wierd looking.. wats with all the exxagerated hourglass figures.. serious i though if the character's spine would break if she did side trunk ending extremely.. but it didbirng bakc memories... like the weapon and fighting style of the turtle.. hard and fast lol.. like GUARDS. although i miss the old april o neil. with the short hair and the banana suit. casey jones was there. rocking. But no shredder and that sucked. how can there be a turtle movie wiht no Shredder... its like casting He man..but no skeletor.

By the Way, would someone please make a Centurions movie, and a He-man Movie. i mean.. im talkin He man and the masters of the universe. and Centurions: Power Extreme. those were great.. haha ^^

and not to mention this year is great for movies. Spider 3 is comin out.. i wanna watch hannibal rising, Music and Lyrics, and the number 23. and Not to mention in july: Transformers woot..

ok sleepy, blog tmr ok? i can blog once every 4 days if i want to and i will try..blogging is fun ^^

2007-04-05T21:10:00.001+08:00

this blog is fucken dead lah, wtf..

2007-02-03T18:58:00.000+08:00

hey guys

srry been away at course all this while and playing world of warcraft but i'll be back soon.. on the 23rd most likely, so wait until then. ^^

BTW

Dianna Tai has got ot be the hottest thing to ever grace this planet.

KTHXBYE~.

update tmr or next week ><

REMEMBER THE SUNWELL

2006-12-25T17:58:00.000+08:00

going back to camp! la la lalalalala~

xmas was good. watched nite at the museum, with jon, samuel, matthew,randy and jons jc frenz..basically it was jons grp and everyone almost didint know everyone else

although one of the girls was cute lol

this xmas i didnt get my date with supergirl and i am sad.. maybe next year!

Merry Xmas.

241206

2006-12-24T11:14:00.000+08:00

HI

i just want to say that if i ever get hospitalized for some strange sickness and its costly to cure mi, or will take too long, i want you guys to kill me off and screw teatment

1) the burden on my parents would be too great
2) i dont mind dying as long as im not living to my fullestdreams [gaming and cookies]
3) i said ok, didnt i.

enuff said.

on a completely unrelated note, i have a headache that will not go away. ouchy

2006-12-23T15:45:00.000+08:00

HI

merry xmas every1! sorry i was away for the week, i was at camp. i cant tell u its classified so..yea sorry. but camp was fun. food is not too bad tho i prefer tekong food [le gasp!] . the guys in my bunk are nice and stuff is all good

heres a videot o keep u entertained! its Radiohead's Creep! nice lullaby.

see u guys later

KTHXBYE

[my bunk mates plays WoW! im goin to play blood elf!]

2006-12-17T10:04:00.000+08:00

HI!

Every time someone predicts the date of the end of the world, God pushes the date back a little just to be funny.

heh

KTHXBYE

[ In brightest day, blackest night
No evil shall escape my sight
Let those who worship evil's might
Beware my power, Green Lantern's light!

sorry was reading on the DCAU. ]

16/12/2006

2006-12-16T20:56:00.000+08:00

HI!

Ok i got my posting! im a military Policeman! im playing the theme song from cops in m head. u know the 'bad boys bad boys, watcha gonna do? whatcha gonna do when they come for you..' haha of course it aint like that. id prolly just beplaying with my ifle alot. unless i get to do awol catchin duty, that would be cool! although it raises some questions

like if i happen get kidnapped and have to play a life and death game of police and thief, do i choose police coz its related to my posting? or be a thief due to my passion to the assassin order and thiefhood. xtra suggests go with ur passion, but u know the sinister cabal of evil people, ur job is your soul. or something. its complicated.

pluto isnt a planet anymore. such a pity.. named after a great good nonetheless. ... Pluto is Hades, lord of the dead, and underworld!. XD XD

anyway i just modded my phone so now i have the legend of zelda song as my ringtone and the item aqquired tune as my sms tone...DA DA DA DA DAAAAAAAAAAAAA! u got an sms! lol. man i love legend of zelda.

speaing of zelda, if you want to know what zelda is all about, or would like to know more oabout one of the greatest game series of all time, goto spikedhumor.com and search for 'retrospective of zelda, the 6 part videos would be highly useful and informative. heck i know i was happy when i was watching it.. brought back some memories..

happy birthday Jesus! you must be the coolest guy around, considering we get a holiday on your birthday. u lucky sonuvagun!

so anyway the current wishlist for this xmas is:
1) Date With Supergirl [thats for xmas nite!]
2) Learning to Play Dungeons and Dragons [not DnD Online:Stormreach. IM talkin classic PnP [Pen and Paper]
3) Getting Warhammer 40k [Again Not Online. THe Tabletop version]
4)All my gamer friends to come together, find a good online game, join in, make a great guild and play happily [AWWW MUSHY.]
5) Cheesecake! [Plain. ]

got nothin much for u guys today i guess.. i'll blog tomorrow..b4 i go to my unit haha. dont die..much

KTHXBYE

[Heard abt the jewish Santa? he goes down chimneys, goes into the kids room, wakes up the children and goes 'hey kid, wanna buy a toy?']

2006-12-13T21:30:00.000+08:00

HI!

ok this is another one of those songs that never fails to magnify a bad mood. coz sometimes when youre in a bad mood, you dont want to get better, you just want to magnify he rage, then let it out. and this is one of then XD. /emo baby.

The Who- Behind Blue Eyes

ok some of you will be all 'hm this song is familiar!' well..sorta.. Limp Bizkit did a cover of this song.. i admire your song recognition skills.

..but say that the LB version is better, and i will rip your leg from its socket, and beat you to death with your own leg. LB cant touch The Who. not now. not ever. dont ever compare the two. -.-

test

2006-12-13T20:57:00.000+08:00

OMG 2 post in two days? its progress. anyway i tot id share some of my fave music videos of the past and present so why not start with my current theme song! this is Gun's and Roses 's November Rain. well to me, its like the perfect love song, although some people think its creep. i dont know.. its just my opinion haha. hope u like it. lyrics and letssingit.com

12/12/2006

2006-12-12T20:54:00.000+08:00

wow.

time is a scrwed up thing. the past is gone, the present is now and the future is fucked. zzzz

The Past.

its been 3 months! to those that still visit.. [which should only be xiew, but i think he gave up coming in anyway...] sorry for the lack of updates

you see, there comes a time in every man's life [and i mean man, coz its mandatory..for women, they volunteer] that The Big Man [thats the government!] says 'hm, time to make him pay for all the stuff we've been giving himm for the past 16++ years, give or take'. then they send u a letter which basically says [not word for word, thisis a summary] 'YOUR SOUL IS OURS FOR 2 YEARS! ALL IS LOST. ALL YOUR SOUL IS BELONG TO US.' and they whisk you away, to different areas fo the country, exposing you to natinal propaganda and hoping you'd kiss the ground everytime u walk on it, so that youre Mr. Patriotic.

so yea i got enlisted and was sent to tekong for like 3 months to train up!

its qutie simple really.

Imagine The ENlistement to be a Online Game. When you were born, if you were male, you are automatically signed up and have registered an account, but the server [the government] has not given you your invite and activation code. so u cant log in yet. for girls, you can sign up anytime you want, and it has to be approved.
so when your reach a certain level [age] in life, the server sends u a letter with your code and stuff, thats when u areable to log into LIFE ONLINE: Serving the Nation!

now on the first day, its basically the tutorial, so they teach u basic stuff. for the next 13 weeks, your trained for a visitor [civilian] to a newbie [soldier]. basic commands and stuff

then you go through a series of trials and quests, to determine your class. thisis where the game sucks. normally you get to choose your own class regardless of wat you do, but this expansion, they choose it for you and force you upon it. which totally sucks coz i wanna go reccy but i think i cant. o well.

anyway the 13 weeks were... interesting. first things first. Basic Stats!!!

Name : Recruit Sivam Tharmarajah Murthy[Recruit BlitzSivam]

note: im a private now! [DING!!!!]]

Company : U [Ulysses, the great warriorzor! unique trait. he holds a shield on his right hand and a sword on his left! means his left handed! not many games offer that! huzzah!]

Platoon: 2 [sadly my platoon was full of chinese.. serious. only non chinese there was ... me. zzzz]

Section: 1 [uh..see above cept change platoon to section]

special notes: i fail my ippt!!! why? coz i suck at standing broad jump and i didnt improve on my chin up in time. [hm weeks 1 -11 do 0 chin up..week 12 do 4. aww too late.]
range was fun. i love shooting stuff.
field camp was cool. had lotsa fun in the nature themed area. too bad i couldnt get another knife. dual wielding rogue ftw.

but i graduated and yay. promotion! i wish i could be a reccy.

The Present

so anyway onward to the next section!! GAMING!

during the 13 weeks, WoW was out of the question. i mean COME ON. pay 50bucks to play for 16 days? fuck that. but when i updated last month i was greeted by so many modification

1st things first, the new talents are out! wat was shown in the burning crusade, has already came out. that means.. dual wield for shamans, muitilate for rogues and felguard for locks etc etc. so damn fucking cool.

im also playing JX2. for those of you who dont know, and its not many , its a malaysian game by game flier. quite cool actually http://jx2.gameflier.com.my . reminds mi of my elysium roots. currently playing a character from the Tang Clan. like throwing projectiles and settin traps haha.

but yea we'll see how everything goes, when The Burning Crusade comes out, i may return, but there are still so many things to try out. especially when the Nintendo Wii Comes out. Marvel Ultimate Alliance! and Legend of Zelda : Twilight Princess.. was atXtra's Place playing Justice League: Heroes last week. FUn game [ALl hail The Flash! Fastest Man Alive!]

but yea other than that gmaing is pretty boring. anyone can loan mi ff12? heh

The Future

as usual, for some reason i always seem to drift off and think abt stuff that scares the shit out of me. like for instance:

what if my dad were to die one of these days? ok so he's wat? 55? yea and the sole bread winner and if he's gone. woah there goes the income. mom has tobe a housewife coz of my bro [ if you dont know , you dont need to.] sis is only 8 and shed prolly get whacked with the shock the most. for me, 2 cases

1) i get hit so hard i break and turn insane

2) i get hit so hard i turn numb and heck care

of course, this would mean i quit gaming and get a job. and i know that in the future i have to take care of my brother, my mom and dad can do it forever, so at some point of time, he is goin to be my responsibility. and i dont think im gonna dump him anywhere. it just doesnt feel right. but of course you know me, say one thing, do another.

and studies! fuck i fucked up my poly years and i regret it now... *points to himself* you fucking pussy. but then wat, time is fucked up, things come and go, live and die, and for some reason, the thoughts of me going at 25 seem so very appealing, of course that would mean i leave my bor all alone with my parents who would be old.. and by the time im 25, my dad shoul be retired so that means income has to come from somewhere.. but where..not many options either me or the lottery. and we know the lottery sucks.

so yea. im just scared about the future. if im alive by the time im 40, im prolly gonnabe living with my bro and doin work, while he stays at home..

hm hed be bored.. but he cant get a job..maybe he can but would be good enough... i mean.. i dont know.. sigh..

z i blogged myself to a pitiful state. should end it b4 i die!

-fin-

KTHXBYE

[Society Does not get smarter, it just finds new ways of being retarded- Dora Bianchi, www.questionablecontent.com ]